The First Day


A blessing for the new year. (web find)


This is the time of the year when everyone starts reflecting on all the things they need to change in order to live well. I am guilty of it but I am trying to change it for I think that we should be looking at our lives regularly through the year and changing our negative behaviours to the positive.  

I also think, though, that everyone needs a starting point and ‘Happy new year!’ tends to be that point.  Why not February 1st or July 1st or October?   

So this January I’m not making resolutions or promises, I’m making changes.  

I will tell you about them but first, I want to look at the positives of 2015.  

I had ample opportunity to be proud of my children.  My son is working hard at achieving his goals, he stands strong by his girlfriend and he is there for his family.  My daughter is making strides in handling her own anger issues and she works hard to maintain her position on the honour roll at school.  

I began therapy and have made progress in changing how I react to things.  The current bruises on my hand would seem to belie that but it is true nevertheless.  The bruises are a result of not taking care of myself well enough throughout December.

I put Lizendale up for sale on Kindle and Amazon.  (HW2 is a week or so away from publication too, by the way.  And when it’s up, both HW1 and Lizendale will be given away for free in the Kindle store.)

My relationship with Wolfman has improved a great deal.

My relationship with The Boyfriend is still going strong.

I went into remission for a few weeks.  Man oh man, was that ever great!

The flare I went into following the remission wasn’t as bad as previous ones.  That means I’m getting stronger.

I had a lot of love, a lot of laughs and a lot of Light in my life. 

Sounds like a great year, doesn’t it?  It was.

It wasn’t without difficulty though.  There are changes I need to make in my thinking, my perspective and the way I treat my body.

Less junk food.  More veggies.  Start at the beginning with my elliptical and any other exercises I want to add.  That means 3 minutes on the elliptical.  Three leg lifts, three repetitions of each move with the resistance band.  

I need to be more open to seeing how other people really see me; my daughter tells me that people appreciate me more than I know. She says I refuse to see it, or close to that.  

I need to be open to the gifts the Universe will send my way and I need to use them wisely.  

I need to be in touch with my spirituality more often, more deeply.  It is a big part of who I am and it’s time I put the work into it that it deserves.

I need to forgive myself my errors and have more patience, mostly with myself but with others as well.

Now, how do we get past the mistakes of last year? It’s as (seemingly) simple as forgiving ourselves for them and letting go.

So easy to type, so potentially difficult to do.

For me, I require symbolism.  A way to… let those mistakes go up in smoke.  For this New Year Day I will be doing the following ritual:

I will clean my house from top to bottom, washing away the dirt and negativity of 2015.  Then I will burn a little piece of paper on which I have written a few things (which I will tell you in a bit).  A tarot reading and a shower.  The shower will be about washing away all the negativity that clings to me.  

Written on the piece of paper I have cut into a 4×4″ square are the following things:

Side 1: I forgive myself the transgressions of 2015.

I let go of the mistakes I made, the things I didn’t get done.

I celebrate the accomplishments, the joys and all that is positive and let go of the negative.  Good bye, 2015.

Side 2:  I open myself to the possibilities, to the gifts that will come my way.

I open my eyes, mind and heart to the Universe and all the Gods choose to bestow upon me.  

I am worthy to receive them.


To me, it is the physical demonstration that I need.  Between the Fibro and the MCS I lose a lot in my brain.  Writing it down, making it something permanent in my memory will help me remember.

That’s what I am doing today, folks, what about you?  What is your favourite way to start the year?  What is the most meaningful?

I wish you every joy, every blessing and all the Light and love you can handle, and then some, in 2016.  I wish you the open mind and heart to receive these gifts.  

Happy New Year.



It’s That Time of Year…

…when good feelings abound.

…when family gets together.

…when food is made in abundance.

…when gaily wrapped boxes and funky or cute bags full of goodies appear.

…when depression becomes it’s strongest.

…when the poor feel their empty wallets more keenly.

…when people acquire debt they can ill afford. 


Yule.  A Google find.

To me, the Yule season is about family.  It’s about showing the love you have for the people in your life.  It’s about gratitude come to life; gratitude that is shown in the hugs, the kisses, the food and warm drinks shared.  

It’s about showing the Gods, (whatever you call them – God, Yahweh, Allah, Isis, the Oak King), your gratitude for your life.  Regardless of your beliefs, this time of year shines with family and love. 

It’s about remembering why we’re here and why we do what we do.  

I have spent some time reflecting on my own family, my obligations, my needs and my hopes and dreams.  There are some things I’d like to change, others I’d like to give sharper focus to.  

Next week, we’ll talk about changes for 2016 and plans for the future.  

This weekend, I’m going to take some pictures with the new GorillaPod Action Tripod my daughter got me!  This is the only time I wish the water was on the east side of me, so I could take night pictures of the full moon on the lake.  It’s the first one on Christmas in 38 years and there won’t be another until 2034.  It’s worth spending some time looking at it, I think.  

But then, I love the moon. 😉

I hope that your holidays see you blessed with love and light, regardless of where you are or your financial station or your health.  Remember, take some time to ease the stress in your belly.  Breathe, enjoy having your family around you.


An Awww Moment

The cover for HW2

The cover for HW2



Are you melting today?  We’re melting today.  It’s GK’s first day of Grade 11.  And she has homework.  Very frustrating homework.  One question is:  You’ve discovered a new element: A=302, Z=119.  How many protons, neurons and electrons are there?

She bent a plastic pencil in half.   I read her textbook and I can’t tell her either.  Hopefully, her classmates will be able to.

Meanwhile, I recently finished the third edit on HW2.  I passed it on to a friend of mine who loves my writing but is brutally honest.  Always has been.  She has edited for me before.  I asked her to look for stupid errors that I’ve missed.  I haven’t looked at the results yet because I wanted to share the content of her return email.

I’m sorry this took me longer than I expected it to. But I am so happy to have been asked. I highlighted the changes I made in case you want to change things back and left notes at the end of each chapter. There is one exception, a joke I had to mention, couldn’t stop myself. Overall the story is wonderful, sexy and heartwarming. I cried when he proposed and when he was scared of her I cried with her, earning me some funny looks around here. simply put, I loved the book.

Isn’t that wonderful?   I love it when I can affect people like that.   THIS is why I write.  Why I wish more people could see my books.  Why I don’t understand people like the book stores who say “this isn’t our thing.”  What?  Evocative writing isn’t for you?  Why do you manage a store in the largest chain in Canada?

*coughs*  End rant.  Sorry.

I think what kitty wrote here is fantastic.  

Wait, I have to find the joke.

Found it!  Kitty is from Arizona, (USA), which, for those who don’t know, is a desert state.  When I was there, a Canadian from a humid province, I had to make the following joke myself, at least once.  (Probably more than once, knowing me. *laughs*)

The line from the story – where Anna, Liam and Chelle had just stepped into the first circle of Hell – is:  The heat took their breath away and, gasping, Anna managed to make an old North American joke, “At least it’s a dry heat.”  She wheezed out a laugh.

Kitty’s joke: “In my head I saw it continued …just like Arizona.” 

*grins*  There is a reason we’re friends.  

I’m off to make dinner now.  I had to share her praise with you.  I love it.

Have a grand evening (or day for you Aussies).



Fiction Friday Week 28

Good afternoon!

I am nearing the end of the third edit of HW2 and I thought I’d share a little bit of it with you.  

This chapter of the book has the Four Claw Pack plotting to overthrow Prince Skeena, the vampire ruler of Glasgow.  Skeena is a bitch.  I’ve mentioned that in the blog before, I think. *laughs*

This bit here demonstrates that quite well.  

It also, perhaps, suggests that I’m a little bit twisted.  A little.  

Mostly though, Skeena’s a sadistic bitch.  

I am off to explore some things I’m excited about.



Skeena realized something was up when her food began to disappear.  They stopped kowtowing and started standing straighter just before they started refusing to come when summoned.  She called Sarah to her rooms. 

“Yes, my Prince?”  Sarah was a consummate actress.  She knew what was coming but she worked damn hard to make sure it never showed in her eyes or attitude.

“Why are the dogs and cats suddenly refusing to feed me?”

Fuck! thought Sarah.  Idiots!  Outwardly she shrugged.  “I have no idea, my Prince.  Perhaps the ones you have summoned do not have the blood to give and need fed and some rest?”  As soon as the question was out of her mouth she wanted to snatch it out of the air.  It was openly critical, not something the other took too well.

Skeena was on her in a flash.  She slammed Sarah against the wall, one hand on her throat, crushing her windpipe.  Snarling and ever paranoid, Skeena searched Sarah’s eyes.  “You have always been loyal to me, Sarah MacLean.  Do not make any mistakes now.”

Sarah was unable to keep the hatred out of her eyes and what was left of her voice.  “Your end is coming, you controlling cow.  Did you really think you could act this way forever?”  Her words were hoarse and nearly silent but she knew the Prince heard her well.

“Only one person has the ability to pull off a coup with any remote chance of success, my friend,” Skeena sneered the last word, “and that is you.”  Skeena released Sarah’s throat and Sarah dropped to her knees, coughing. 

Sarah struggled to get her breathing back in working order.  In the next moment she yelped in pain as Skeena’s foot connected with her spleen then her ribs.  Still, her ire was enough to make her grind out one last sentence.  “You’ll be ash before the night is out.  I pray I get the chance to do it myself.”

Skeena’s foot connected with Sarah’s jaw and as Sarah lay there, fighting the blackness threatening to take over her mind Skeena yelled for her guards.  Two entered the room, one loyal to the bone to the Prince and the other loyal to Sarah.  They both showed surprise at seeing Sarah on the floor, spitting out blood.  “Take this cunt down to my dungeon!  I’ll be done as soon as I change my clothes.”  Skeena paused.  “Wait!  Parade the traitor through the house first.  Let her be a warning”.

The guard loyal to Sarah reached her first and, with an internal wince, wrapped his fingers in her hair to pull her upright.  As Sarah’s hands flew up to grab his wrist he adjusted his grip so it only looked like he was pulling her solely by her hair.  Sarah’s grip on his wrist made her able to help him maintain the illusion.  Guard two, satisfied the first had things properly in hand, merely opened the door.  Neither of them said anything to the Prince, conditioned long ago never to speak in her presence.  She had said that didn’t want to hear voices of the peons in her home.

The two dragged Sarah through a series of corridors, past Wolves, a couple of Tigers and one Lion, they all looked on with wide eyes. More gathered to stare in shock as the guards took Sarah on a return trip.  One of the Tigers then discretely withdrew to find a phone.  She called Glynnis and relayed what she saw.

Finally, the guards came back to Skeena’s room.  Guard two moved a large trunk and pulled back a rug.  Hidden below the furnishings was a large trap door.  Guard Two opened it and Guard One, Jake, dragged Sarah down by her hair.

 In the dungeon, Sarah was strung up.  She was manacled wrist and ankle by Jake then Guard Two turned a crank set into the stone wall and Sarah’s arms were lifted above her head and stretched just to the point of pain, until she was standing on the tips of her toes.  Her clothes were cut from her by Jake, who did his best to convey that someone would save her without letting the other guard see it.  Sarah took a breath and sighed softly as she let her head droop.  Her hair fell forward to curtain her face and she mouthed, “It’s okay” at Jake.

He turned to Guard Two.  “She’s set, go let the Prince know.”

“She doesn’t want to hear from us.  She said she’d be down in a moment, we’ll leave it at that.”  He sneered at Jake like he knew that Jake’s loyalties were not quite where they should be.  Just then the door opened and both their mouths snapped shut.

Skeena was wearing a blood red gi and carrying a wooden case about thirty-two inches long by six wide.  She looked around the room.  There were a couple of small tables, one beside what looked like a dentist’s chair and one beside a four foot high stone altar.  “Move a table to sit in front of her.”

As Guard Two did her bidding Skeena shifted the case to under one arm and moved to a glass fronted cabinet with interior recessed lights.  Inside was a shelf of knives.  Curved ones, long ones, short ones, wide ones, narrow filleting ones.  There were double-edged and single-edged; ones for hunting, gutting, skinning and survival.  Skeena picked up one that sat alone under its own spotlight.

The Prince brought the knife and case over to the table and set them both down.  She opened the case, pulled out a cat-o’-nine whip and showed it to Skeena with a grin.  “It’s been a long time since I used this.”  She lifted the tails to Sarah’s line of vision.  Sarah was staring at the wall across from her but Skeena managed to make her focus for a brief moment on the whip.  Skeena cackled when Sarah shuddered.  The flogger was thirty inches long, six inches of that were simply the handle; the other twenty-four inches was comprised of the thin leather falls, also known as tails.

Each of the nine tails had pieces of razor sharp bone tied into it in random places, two to four pieces per tail.  The thing was designed not only to have a hell of an impact but to shred flesh.  And the Prince was planning on using it on Sarah.

“It’s lovely, isn’t it?”  Skeena waited for an answer.  When none was forthcoming, she slapped Sarah across the facing, leaving a bright red imprint of her hand.  “It’s lovely.  Isn’t it.”

“Quite.  You really should feel it for yourself before you use it on anyone else.”  Sarah’s voice was hard.

Skeena was amused.  “But first, we’re going to indulge ourselves in a little blade play.  Playing with knives is so much fun, don’t you think?”

Sarah shrugged as best she could with her arms stretched over her head.  She liked to play a little rough in the bedroom – she liked her ass slapped when being fucked from behind or her nipples pinched hard.  Sometimes she liked having her mouth used without her having any control over it.  She liked teeth.  A lot.  But she did not hold with the level of Sadomasochism Skeena did.  Especially since a lot of the masochists Skeena played with were involuntary.  Skeena was starting to scare her but she was determined not to let it show.

Skeena laid the flogger down and picked up the knife.  It had a four inch handle with a double-sided grip.  The blade was nine inches long.  One side was a smooth, sharp edge.  It was straight until an inch or so to the tip where it swooped up.  The opposite side had a small scoop in it then a serrated edge started.  The blade was custom and Skeena had had the edge cut like a saw blade.  A saw’s cutting edge is set so that the teeth are set just off centre, alternating left and right.  She kept both edges sharp enough to slice a piece of paper, were one dropped onto it.

Sarah knew that blade.  She had seen what it could do and for the first time, fear crept into her eyes.

“Oh good,” Skeena drawled as she looked at Sarah.  “You remember this knife.  We’re going to play with it.”  She set the smooth edge against Sarah’s ribs, just under her arm and applied a small bit of pressure until the knife popped through the first layer of skin.  She pressed a little harder and drew the knife around to under Sarah’s breast in a wide arc.  Then, before Sarah could begin to feel the delayed pain such a sharp knife creates, Skeena flipped the knife around and dug the serrated edge into the new cut. 

Skeena sawed at the cut, tearing the edges of the flesh and digging until she hit bone.  She followed the new cut all the way around. 

Sarah ground her teeth together and clenched her fists.  It took all her willpower not to scream out. 

Skeena saw that as a challenge.

P.S  Apparently there’s a reason I do at least three edits.  I found the word ‘watching’ where it should have said ‘wanting’!

Fiction Friday Week 27


Yes, I’m aware it’s Saturday again.  Maybe I should call it “The Saturday Segment” today.  

hmm… I like that idea. 

Saturday Segment


I really do need to get back into the habit of blogging, eh?  I shall endeavour to do so, maybe by taking a page from Kim Harrison’s blogging behaviour.  She blogs nearly every day about this and that.  I haven’t done a lot of writing recently but I have done quite a bit of photography.  I have one especially spectacular photo I will share with you.

Astoundingly beautiful, isn't it?

Astoundingly beautiful, isn’t it?  (click on it! Worth it, I promise)


I have been doing well with the photography but not so well with the editing. 

Speaking of editing, we have come around to the subject of today’s blog: Demon Plague, book two of the Highland Wolves Series.

(burnt my hand making dinner, pardon any mistakes)

I am on chapter two, when the first demon attacks.  I thought I’d share that with you.  And, because of the above mentioned burn – three fingers, part of my palm and part of my thumb – I’m going to cut this short.  

Have a great rest of your weekend (a long one for at least  most of Canada!).


Chapter Two


By tea time, the Wolves were packed and ready to go.  A few would be staying to watch over the den, half of those going would be traveling up and around the Isle of Skye, lining the borders of the Skye Pack land, just in case.  They’d left two hours before and would lay low and wait for word.  If the Alpha didn’t check in with the remaining Delta, the pack would move in, capturing any Skye Wolves they found. 

The other half would be riding with the Alphas and Beta, the Gamma included.  It seemed foolhardy to have the top echelon of the Pack in one vehicle but there was strategy to be discussed.  Hopefully they’d manage it while still in Pack or ally territory but perhaps not.  If they managed it, the four would be spread out a bit more.  If not, the convoy would ride more tightly.  Several Wolves on motorcycles ranged around the car with the top four, watching their surroundings. 

They took the A82 out of town, heading northwest.  It took them until they had almost reached Loch Lomond to finalize their plans.  Anna was looking out the window and really wanted to touch the beautiful countryside.  “Can we have a rest stop, please?  I need to…” she gestured helplessly, “…touch it.” 

Liam chuckled and nodded.  He drove another twenty minutes before finding the perfect spot.  He pulled the car in at a small rest area north of Blairannaich.  The cars and bikes pulled in and the pack poured into the surrounding trees and nearby strip of beach, stretching with happy groans.  Someone shouted, “Hey Alpha!  Wolves aren’t meant to be trapped inside metal dragons!” 

Laughter followed the comment and Liam shouted back, “When you Wolves learn how to fly, we’ll do that.  This is only a ten minute break people, enjoy it.”  He pulled Anna into his arms and kissed her senseless.  “I’ve missed you.”

She laughed.  “We’ve been sitting side by side for hours, Wolfman.”

“Oh aye, but I cannae do this while driving.”  His brogue was thick, voice rough with need.  He nibbled her lower lip and down her throat, watching the colours that flowed under her skin following the path of his kisses.  He kept nibbling until a throat clearing nearby interrupted him.  He growled in annoyance.  “What!”

Marcus grinned unrepentantly.  “You are in public and she’s starting to kind of glow.”

Anna blushed and Marcus grinned more broadly.  She had opened her mouth to retort, one hand covering her throat to hide the colours she could feel swirling, when a scream ripped through the air.  The three of them whipped around towards the water in time to see a Mu level Wolf named Lily get plucked off the small boulder she’d been standing on.

The girl was lifted into the air by a huge monstrosity.  It was a being made entirely of water formed into a loose humanoid shape.  It reminded Anna of the Golgothan in Dogma and she cursed under her breath.  She took off running towards the screaming girl.  As Anna closed in, shoving her way through the stunned Pack members who stood there staring as more arms flowed out of the body and grasped the still shrieking girl by each limb and around her neck.

Anna stood on the shore and shouted up at it, “Ninjutsu!  Let the girl go!”

A loud watery laugh answered her.  “Spawn of Cain; do you think you can stop me?  You wish me to let her go?  So be it!”  The demon pulled and the screaming stopped abruptly as the girl’s head popped off and the limbs tore free of the torso with a wet sucking sound.  The demon threw the bits and pieces at the pack, scattering the Wolves.

It laughed again, big belly laughs, as Anna turned to the pack and screamed at them all to get as far away from the water as possible.  “Cain’s pubic louse!  I will leave the rest alone if you will give yourself to me.”

“You lie, you filthy Utukku Limnuti,” Anna said scornfully.  “Do you not think that I have dealt with Demons long enough to know that they never tell the simple truth?  There is no mercy in you.”  She planted her feet in the pebbled shore and lifted her hands over her head, palms facing each other.  She began to chant in a long forgotten language as she cast her mind around for the name of the God whose help she needed.  Power formed between her hands, a glowing ball of blue and purple fire.  Finally, the name of a long forgotten a Sumerian God popped into her head.

“Pazuzu!  Please help rid us of this monster!”

The demon flinched at the name but covered its fear up by growing bigger.  It roared at Anna and reached for her. 

Anna threw the ball of fire and the demon hissed in pain and fury as a piece of it turned to steam.  She took advantage of the momentary weakness and chanted quickly in Sumerian, the ancient words rolling off her tongue, each one laced with power.  She threw another ball of fire at it and called on Pazuzu once more.  “Pazuzu aid your children!  Save them from this filth!”  A column off fire grew around her, snaking from her to the Utukku Limnuti.

Water shimmered and shook as Anna’s power began to wrap around the demon like glowing chains.  It chortled, amused, and grabbed the chains to pull her towards it.  It screamed as the fire superheated its fingers until they were nothing but steam. 

Anna smirked.  “Did you really think I’d make it that easy?”

The Utukku shrank a little as it reformed the vaporized hands.  Uma Thurman’s voice came out of its throat as it said, “You know, for a second there, I really did.”

“Oh good grief, you’re quoting movies?  Learn to speak for yourself.”  Anna rolled her eyes and tightened the chains, wrapping more and more around the Utukku Limnuti, overlapping them until there was barely a hairsbreadth of space between lengths of links.  The pack watched as Anna started to glow.  A moment later the chain links began to brighten and then the Wolves had to slap their hands over their eyes and turn away as Anna and the chain links burst into blinding white hot flames.  They dove for cover as steam exploded outward.

“You’ll not succeed!  You will die!  My Master will send more after you.”  The disembodied voice floated around Anna before moving off.  “You are dead!  You and your little dog too!”

“Good Gods!  Could you pick an older movie?”  Anna shouted at it.  “And tell your Master I’ll not go down without a fight.  Tell him to face me himself.”

There was no answer.  Anna’s fury kept the fire around her for several long moments as she waited, watching for more.  The presence felt gone but demons were tricky and she was paranoid.  The fire did not begin to dim until the pack had crept out of their hiding places and surrounded her with her Mate in front of her. 

Liam looked at her black eyes and wondered if she’d need to Feed again.  He put his hand near her face, enduring the heat of the fire to stroke her hair until she looked at him.  His skin blistered and burned, it was agonizing but he persisted.  Part of him wondered at it since her fire had never hurt him before.  Most of him didn’t care about it, he just wanted her back.  “Anna.  Anna love, come back to me.” 

The smell of burning flesh reached through Anna’s paranoia and watchfulness, breaking her focus, and she turned startled eyes to Liam, the black washing out.  The fire dropped in a wink and she grabbed his wrist.  “Liam!  What did you do?”

“Are we safe?  Can we continue on now?”  Liam ignored the screaming pain in his hand long enough to be sure his people were safe.

Anna nodded even as she pulled from the nature around her and bathed his hand in healing blue light.  She repaired the nerves.  Then she closed up the wounds and formed new flesh.  Kissing the palm, she let Liam take his hand back only when she was done with it.  “Yes, my love, we can move on.”

Marcus caught her as she fainted and lifted her into his arms.  He stood, waiting for his Alpha as Liam looked at his hand, pink and shiny, and sighed.  Being with his she-Wolf was going to cost far more than a pound of flesh.  However, he’d known going in that being her Mate would be difficult and probably lead to a shorter lifespan – for him and others.  He hoped that he was strong enough to stay with her until her end came.

He had no idea just how close Anna’s end really was.


Fiction Friday Week 26

This blog is for those over the age of majority in your region.  While I normally post stuff I’d let my 15 y/o read THIS IS NOT ONE OF THOSE DAYS.  If you are under 18, go away.

Good morning!  

I’ve been absent, I know.  It happens. 🙂  

I have a number of pictures to share with you.  It’s a theme similar to this time last year – the flora around me. I can’t help it.  The blooms captivate me.

But this isn’t about that. 

I was worried that I had nothing to share with you.  I haven’t written anything in HW4 and there isn’t much research done this week because I’ve been doing other things.  I get distracted and then foomp nothing’s done.  

I’m working on it.  I have been pondering the story in the background.  I need to go back into the previous books and adjust her pregnancy.  I think cutting the gestation in half is bad.  It gives me no room to get anything done in book four.  How could she possibly hunt an evil witch if she’s A) heavily pregnant or B) a brand new mother of triplets?  

As I said, I thought at first that I had nothing to share today. Last Saturday morning, however, I got slapped with a short story.  It’s less than 1800 words and it’s erotic.  I have said in the past that I am an inspired writer and every now and then, stories just pour out of me, as was the case on Saturday.  

A funny little story came out of it too.  It is my habit to rise at sunrise (or close to it) and get on my laptop. I turn music on and put headphones in.  When The Boyfriend wakes up he texts me, “Good morning, girl.”  I usually get up and go into the bedroom.

That’s what happened Saturday.  He texted me and I automatically rose.  This time I unplugged my computer and took it with me.  I’m not entirely sure I stopped typing.  I sat on the bed.  *click click clackety click* 

“Writing?” he asks.

*Frankenstien grunt… click click clackety click*

He laughs.  “Yep, I guess so.”  He picked up his phone, opened a game, and waited me out. 

I wrote the entire thing in less than an hour.  It’s had a brief edit but that’s all.  I have no real idea what the trigger was just that this happened.  

I have a strange idea for a story – I want to write a yoga-kink story.  One where the sub/slave is doing Sun Salutation, for instance, and her Master is doing her.  Nipple weights, restraints (with mobility within the parameters of each movement), paddles, crops, etc.  That one will be fun to write. 😉

Enjoy the story and happy Friday!




She hung there, nude, on her toes, wrists in cuffs that wrapped around half her forearm, draped over the back of her hands and offered her a small bar across her palms that she could grip.  And gripping she was.  A hook held the cuffs together.  The hook was attached to a chain that snaked down from a firmly anchored hook in the ceiling. 

Her head was thrown back, breath escaped her in panted puffs.  Her skin was on fire and that fire had soaked into her blood.  The fire was in her groin.  Thick fluid coated her inner thighs, slicked her core and made her easy to toy with.  Her skin was pink and red, welted in places, though no bruises marred the creamy satin of her flesh. 

He hated bruises.  He had worked hard at learning how to combine pleasure with pain without leaving the ugliness of the purples, yellows and blues caused by broken blood vessels beneath the skin.  He loved the waterfall of copper and silver hair that flowed down her back.  He tapped the crop he held against his thigh and smiled with vicious pleasure as her head jerked up and she gasped.  He aimed, swung and tapped a particularly large welt.

A scream escaped her. 

A chuckle left him.  He knew that scream.  It was all need, carnal and animal.  He could smell the need on her.  The fear. She trusted him with her life, a gift he didn’t take lightly, but still, she was afraid.  Afraid, he thought, that he wouldn’t take her, that he wouldn’t make them one and thereby make them both whole.  Afraid, he thought too, that he would hurt her more and that he wouldn’t.

So he laid the crop down and stepped up to her, behind her, just close enough that he could feel the heat of her flesh on his bare chest.  Not so close that the iron need, locked behind the zipper of the leather jeans, the need that was his, could touch her.  He punished himself cruelly by waiting.  Someday, he thought, he would examine his need to punish himself.  For now, however, the anticipation was bittersweet and totally worth it. 

Please, she thought, please, please.  It was one of only two coherent words she could keep in her head.  The other was now.  She pushed back on her toes and succeeded in brushing her body against her.  Primal, primitive pleasure shot through her at the evidence of his own need shot through her and made her growl softly.  She’d discovered, as she’d grown into the woman she was, that with age came greater orgasms.  They were deeper, richer, tore her apart at a cellular level it seemed.  And she definitely knew how to appreciate them better.

He growled in return and stepped forward, pushing her back into place then forward, forcing her to stretch her arms as she stepped forward on her toes.  He knew the burn in her shoulders would need taken care of but right now, he didn’t care.  He wrapped his arms around her, dragged his hands up the softness of her belly and weighed her breasts in his hands.  He pinched the nipples tightly, pulling them away from her and lifting her breasts up. 

Her sound of pleasure turned to one of pain.  She had large breasts and gravity tugged on them hard, fighting the grip he had on her.  She squirmed, tried to push up further on her toes.  The pain was hot and bright red in her mind.  It took a long minute for her to understand this punishment but when she did she submitted, relaxed her body against him and gave herself up to his hands again.

Satisfied, he slowly let her breasts down and let go.  He relished the whimper she released as the blood rushed back into her nipples.  He grabbed her jaw and twisted her head to kiss her.  It was hard, fast and awkward.  Unsatisfied, with the taste of her on his lips, he moved around her.  He took possession of her jaw again and held her firm.  He fought with instinct and lightly brushed his lips over hers.

His lips were hers, no matter what he thought, she decided.  She loved the feel of them, the taste of him on her.  She waited, soft and pliant, and let him tease her.  She flicked her tongue out and swiped at his lips.  She almost smiled at his answering groan but the way he took her mouth in the next moment prevented it.

She just had to do it, didn’t she, he asked himself.  Just had to breach his control and try to take it from him.  He slanted his mouth over hers, forced her lips to part and branded her with his need for her.  And all it took was his hands to brush against her hips, to ghost around the curve of her ass, for her to take the hint and wrap her legs around his waist.  He knew that she’d gripped those little bars across her palms and put her weight on her arms until she’d settled around him. 

Still, he wasn’t happy.  He slid his hands up her arms and unhooked her.  There, that was right, he thought as her arms dropped around his neck.  He staggered, caught himself, then carried her to the bed.  He dropped them both down, catching his weight on his arms.  Seconds later he wrapped himself around her and continued the assault on her mouth even as she cried out in surprise and pain.

Oh damn it hurt when both of them landed on the welts on her back but she didn’t care.  She fought the restraints, struggled to be able to fulfill her need to touch him.  She growled and whimpered when all she could do was grab his hair and turn the kiss into an equal battleground.  They fought for supremacy, licking, teasing, biting, devouring.   Their need filled the room with sounds.

Finally he broke the kiss and disengaged her fingers from his hair.  He rose to his knees and stared down at her.  When she tried to rise to touch him, he put his hand on her chest and pushed her back.  He wanted to look.  Her hair was everywhere, spread across the pale blue pillowcases like fire.  Her eyes were wild with need, lust and love.  The expressions on her face alternated between need, lust, love and fury.  The fury amused him. He knew it was there because he wasn’t touching, wasn’t letting her touch. 

Because there was fury, he grabbed her wrists and forced her arms over her head.  He leaned over her, sighing at the feel of her mouth on his chest, and searched for the chain and hook he knew was attached to the headboard, buried behind the mattress.  When it rattled, she stilled then bucked against him, struggling to get her wrists out of his grip.

He merely chuckled, laid down on top of her to kiss her briefly then changed his position.  He straddled her legs, holding them closed.  She struggled, eyeing him warily.  He grinned, she fought not to grin back. Then he leaned forward and brushed his lips along her jaw.  She turned her head to give him access.  He tasted the sensitive spot behind her ear then slide his mouth down the column of her neck.  He set his teeth around her throat as her chin went up.

She laid there in total submission, limp and soft.  She let him know that she was his.  Then, as his mouth moved over her, lips and tongue soothing, teasing, tormenting, she writhed for him.  She cried out for him, twisting and wriggling.  And when he spread her legs, laid between him, she opened for him.  She welcomed the bruising grip on her hips that kept her from bucking and dislodging him as he tasted her thoroughly.  The heat built in her, swirling higher, brighter and hotter with each stroke of his tongue, each scrape of his teeth.

He lifted his mouth and his eyes and watched as he pierced her with one finger then two.  She screamed a word as he curled those fingers and brushed against the tight bundle of nerves.  He refused her, brushed against it again. She wordlessly screamed her fury and need .  He teased again.

Tears rolled from her eyes as she fought to keep all that fire inside from exploding outward.  She screamed that word again.  She cried as he denied her, again.  She growled, helpless to stop it, as he slid his fingers from her grasping core only to plunge them back in. 

Finally, he gave his permission.  One word and then his mouth at the apex of her womanhood. 

Her body coiled tightly as she tried to let go.  She couldn’t force what she needed; she had to wait for it to come to her again.  Her breath lodged in her chest.  Then he stroked once more with his fingers, set his teeth around her and bit down lightly.  It was like a volcano erupting, hot, intense and totally encompassing.  The pleasure burst from her with a wrenching scream that tore her throat and a waterfall that almost drowned him.

He made her explode again, and again, and once last time before he slowly brought her down and moved back up her body to cover her once more.  He tucked one arm under her shoulder and use the other to stroke her face.  He whispered to her softly as she looked at him with eyes that didn’t see clearly.

She could feel him, smell herself on him.  She could feel him nudging at her core as he tenderly made sure she was alright.  She forced herself to focus on him because she needed him in her, needed them to be together, and she knew he would only enter her if she was with him. 

Tell me, he demanded.  Tell me you need me.

I need you.  Her voice was raw, ragged, soft, as she pressed her cheek against his hand.

You want me.  He pressed the words from her. 

I want you.  The desire blazed from her eyes.

You love me.  It wasn’t a question, he knew it as well as he knew his own name. 

I love you.  The truth of it was in every fiber of her being, in the way she breathed as she said it.

She wrapped her legs around his waist, opened herself to him again.

He got a grip, lined himself up, then let go.  He let go of his steely control and slammed into her.  He rose up and held himself pressed against her, pelvis to pelvis, root to core. 

Finally, they both thought.  Peace at last.




Fiction Friday Week 25

Good morning!  TGIF and all that.

I have here the last of the June 50.  ….Wow.  I really do need a title.  It is tentatively titled “Soul Timer” but I’m not sure I like it. The opening page of the document has this written on it.  

A soulmate is the person with whom your soul connects; the person in whom you find a home.  It is not easily explained. 

It is the person you love unconditionally; the person with whom you find a deep connection.  It is a meeting of minds, hearts and bodies.  It is the unconditional love of self, yours and theirs.  It is where communication is easiest, where total acceptance is found, with no judgements.

A soulmate is the perfect love of an imperfect person.

It’s something I saw on Facebook and tweaked just a little.  It works with both the story and my own beliefs.  It’s lovely, no?

Next week’s Fiction Friday will be about HW4, I’m sure.  I will be editing HW2 for the third time too and prepping it for publishing so you may get bits and pieces of that I like. 

Oh damn.  That’s where the pregnancy starts.  More thinking about that is required, I can tell.

I may also begin the editing for Rolf’s story.  Then I can work on book 2 – the background, settings and puzzles.  

Enjoy the ending to this June 50.  I certainly did.  And have a great weekend!



Chapter Twenty-nine


2102, Savannah, 38 years old, 2 hours, 13 minutes left on timer

Savannah steps aboard the ship belonging to one Jack Hill, Sr. and greets the Captain and Jack Hill, Jr. “Where is she?”  She’s stressed, worried about Delilah.  She’s tried to stay away, keep her distance, but she, Ghost and Reaper have kept tabs on her.  She knows where she’s been and she knows that she hasn’t had a man in her life since, though she briefly had a girlfriend.  And then another and another after that. All blondes, a fact Ghost found most interesting.

None of the relationships lasted more than a few weeks.  Her timer tingles, as it has for the last week, ever since she got to Arizona on the last assignment.  This time it’s like electric shocks and she rubs it absently.

The Captain catches the motion.  “Is it tingling?  Has it been?”  At Savannah’s nod he smiles.  “It’s almost run down, hasn’t it?  The tingling means you’re close to your intended.”

“Where’s Delilah?” she asks impatiently.  She doesn’t give a damn about her timer.  It took her too long to get here.  Far too long.  She’d sent Janus officers to remove that jackass Tom from the ship but hadn’t been able to come herself until her business in Arizona was settled.

Jack surveys the woman.  Very strong, very capable looking.  He’d bet she was Black Ops.  She had that look.  She is also starting to get a murderous glint in her eye.  “I need to talk to you first.  Come with me.”  He makes it an order. 

Savannah finds herself following him and shakes her head.  She assumes that he has good reason and she should know what she’s walking into.  This is the second time Delilah’s been attacked in as many years and it’s bound to have taken a toll.  Delilah was strong, in her way, but being beaten up twice, once by someone she’d trusted, was bound to take a toll. 

Jack sits her down and gets her a drink.  He pours himself a Scotch and holds up a hand as Savannah opens her mouth.  “You know what happened, I’m assuming.  The senior Janus officer that was here said that the crime had been reported by a friend of Delilah’s, a Sam MacTavish.  She insisted on having the injuries on Delilah documented and recorded her version of the events.  It’s the only time Delilah has opened that door since I moved her to a clean cabin.  She hasn’t had anything to eat or drink in eighteen hours.”

He rubs his face.  “She may be drinking water from the bathroom but I have no idea.  I have no idea what state she’s in, to be honest.”

“Let me see her.” Savannah is confident that Delilah will let her in.

Jack nods and takes her to Delilah’s cabin.  He knocks lightly on the door.  “Delilah, honey, you have a guest.”  He leaves, hoping this woman will get through to Delilah.  He’d grown to like the funny, bright woman who was helping him with his project.

“Sam?” Delilah’s quiet voice is tremulous.

“Delilah, darling, it’s me.” Savannah speaks just loud enough to be heard.

There’s a long pause then Delilah’s voice comes again, this time a lot closer.  On the other side of the door, Savannah judges.  “Savannah?”

“Yes. Please let me in.”  Savannah puts her hand on the door, trying to ignore the fierce tingling in her arm.  It’s a long moment before the lock clicks and the door starts to swing open.  Savannah braces herself for what she might see.

Delilah peers around the edge of the door and, once she sees for herself that it’s really Savannah, she darts around it and flings herself into the other woman’s arms.

“Savannah!”  Delilah bursts into tears, burying her face in Savannah’s neck.

Savannah wraps her arms around Delilah and gently eases her into the room.  She closes the door and sets Delilah away from her just enough to be able to look at her.  She frowns at the yellowing bruise that has crept into Delilah’s temple and down almost to her jaw.  She almost touched it but she doesn’t want to hurt her.  She rubs her thumb over lips that were no longer swollen.  “Dear Goddess.  I never imagined he could do this.”

Delilah’s lip trembles and she shakes her head. “I didn’t either.  He’s asked me out a few times but always accepted my answer.”

“He only seemed to accept your answer, Lily.”  Savannah hugs Delilah tightly again, partly surprised at how good it feels, how right, and partly afraid of it.  She glances at her timer then gently sets Delilah from her.  “Mr. Hill tells me you haven’t had anything to eat or drink since you had dinner with him.”

“I can’t,” Delilah whispers.  “I just… Why? What is it about me that made those two men want to hurt me?”  Her voice rises and she stomps around the room.  “What the hell did I ever do to them?”  She throws the blankets from her like some over-acted Dracula flinging his cape from his shoulders.  Why the hell am I letting them control my life?”

Savannah is relieved to see the fury.  The depressed, timid Delilah was freaking her out.  After the Harris event, Delilah had done her physio and then taken self-defense classes, determined never to be a victim again.  “You didn’t do anything to them.”

“Damn right I didn’t!  All I did was be myself!”  She stops and scrubs her face as Savannah answers a discrete knock on the door.  “Maybe they’ll leave me alone if I stop taking pictures.  Maybe I should just go into seclusion.”

Savannah sets the tray the purser had just given her on the small table under the surprisingly large windows.  She takes the moment to look around the suite.  She’s impressed.  It’s easily one hundred and eighty square feet.  Large bed, small two person table, dressing area and a large vid screen on a swivel attached to the wall across from the bed that can be seen from the bed or the wing chair just off to the side.   “Well, if you do that, this is a great place to do it.”

“Oh, I could never do that to Jack.  He’s a nice guy and he needs to finish his project.”  Delilah finally really looks at Savannah.  “What took you so long?” Her voice is plaintive.

“I’m sorry, Lily.  I was in a situation I couldn’t get out of.  We’ll talk about it later.”  Savannah sits down at the table, hoping that Delilah will follow her.  She sighs to herself as Delilah paces instead.

“I’m sorry.  I’m so sorry.  It’s all my fault.  I must have done something.  Now Dennis is dead and Tom is going to prison.  There must be something about me.  And it’s my fault you had to come here, away from work.”

Savannah watches Delilah.  Guilt and depression in one. Good, she thinks.  “It’s not your fault, Delilah,” she says fiercely.  “There is nothing you could possibly have changed.”  She refrains from adding that Tom should have been fired months ago.  She suspects that it would not have helped, that Tom would have turned into his own version of Tom.  She wishes now that she’d taken Reapers dark suggestion and ensured Tom had an ‘accident’ some time ago. 

Savannah shakes the thought off and picks up a small appetizer.  It’s a slice of baguette with what looks like a smear of cheese and, she sniffs it, a pear chutney.  “This looks interesting.  Why don’t you try it with me?”  She gives Delilah a pretty look.  “I never did like trying new foods by myself.”

Delilah looks at the tray and her tummy rumbles loudly.  She shakes her head.  “I don’t deserve such niceties.  But…” She looks at the crystal decanter of fresh juice.  She would place money on it being mango and passion fruit.  Her mouth waters.  “…I could have a sip of juice maybe.”

Immediately, Savannah sets the food down and pours a half inch of juice into a glass.  She holds it out to Delilah.  She watches Delilah take a hesitant sip then sighs with relief when Delilah downs the juice and holds the glass out again.  A little more drink and maybe a bit of food and Savannah would talk about a bath.  Perhaps then she could get Delilah to move beyond depression. 



Chapter Thirty

2102, Savannah and Delilah, 1 hour, 45 minutes left on timer


Savannah picks up the bread and fruit again and studies it with a critical eye.  She sniffs it again.  “Do you know what kind of cheese this is?”  She holds it out to Delilah.

Delilah takes it.  She likes Savannah and she can’t help but be helpful.  She looks at the appetizer then copies Savannah and sniffs it.  “It’s Brie.  It’s a very good appetizer.”  Somehow, Delilah can’t bring herself to give it back.  She turns away and starts pacing the room again, the bit of bread in the palm of her hand. 

She feels like ass.  Her head hurts. Hell, her entire body hurts.  Her face is a special kind of pain though, the kind reserved for cracked bones.  She doesn’t care, she doesn’t want to do anything about it.  It will remind her not to trust anyone again.  The thought makes her shoulders sag.  She sits abruptly on the edge of the bed and stares absently at the food.  Automatically, she eats it. 

Suddenly, Delilah is starving.  She moves to the table and sits down.   Savannah hands her a plate with one more of the appetizers on it and a few slices of apple.

“Eat slowly; you don’t want to upset your stomach.”  She ladles some soup into a bowl and pushes it towards Delilah.  She watches as Delilah devours the bread, cheese and fruit, barely chewing, then pours herself a glass of juice.  She sucks it back and reaches to pour another.  Savannah takes everything but the soup out of Delilah’s reach.  “Slowly, Lily.  Slowly.”

Delilah tries to force herself to calm down but it’s hard.  She’s so hungry suddenly.  She slurps down the soup, embarrassing herself, but she can’t seem to stop.  When she’s finished, she just sits there, breathing hard through her nose as emotion overwhelms her.  Fear, anger, guilt, gratitude.

Abruptly, there’s an ominous rumbling in her stomach. 

Savannah sees the alarmed look that crosses Delilah’s face and steels herself.  Sure enough, a moment later, Delilah bolts for the head.  Savannah follows and gets there just in time for Delilah to heave up the contents of her stomach.  She kneels beside her and gently scoops her hair back from her face.  And then holds it back as Delilah pukes once again.  She sighs softly but refrains from saying anything. 

Delilah props her head up with her elbow on the toilet rim then reaches up and flushes the toilet. She slaps a hand around on the counter, looking for one of the clean, rolled up cloths the maid insists on leaving. She gives up and lays her head on the edge of the toilet bowl.  It’s cool against her heated flesh.  She hears Savannah get up and dampen a cloth.  In a moment, the cool material is laid in one of her hands and she lifts her head to give Savannah a ghost of a smile.  Her throat burns so she doesn’t say anything but simply wipes at her face, scrubbing her mouth, as Savannah runs the water once more.

Savannah takes the cloth once Delilah is done with it presses the small glass into her hand instead.  “Small sips, please honey.” 

Delilah nods.  Her sides and stomach hurt.  She takes a sip, swishes it around inside her mouth and spits it into the toilet.  She does it once more then takes a cautious swallow.  The cool water soothes her throat and she sighs.  “I’m sorry,” she says quietly. “I should have listened.”

“It’s alright, Lily.  These things happen.  You’ve had a rough go this week.”

Delilah coughs as a short, hard laugh tickles her throat.  “You might say.”  She pushes back from the toilet.  “I think I’m done.”

Savannah helps her to her feet then leans against the doorjamb as Delilah brushes her teeth.  “Would you like to try again?  Just some soup this time?”

Delilah nods as she rinses her mouth and they leave the room together, leaving the fan on to rid the room of the smell.  They sit down and Savannah gives Delilah a fresh bowl, watching as Delilah takes a slow mouthful.

“The soup is really quite good,” Delilah says.  “You should have some.”

With a chuckle, Savannah helps herself to Delilah’s first bowl, warming it first with another ladle full of soup.  She tastes it and nods.  “For a simple chicken soup it is very tasty.”

“Chef Shaun is one of the best.”

Savannah nods.  “I can see that.  The appetizers were outstanding.”  She knows that Delilah needs to talk about Tom but she lets her get to it in her own time. They make small talk as Delilah slowly finishes the soup. 

Then they sit for a while, sometimes in silence, sometimes sharing their favourite things – books, vids, places in the world.  They talk about more than they did when they were together the first time and discover they have a lot in common.  Finally, Savannah suggests a shower.

Delilah shoves a self-conscious hand through her hair.  It’s lank and greasy and she realizes she must stink as well.  “Good idea.”  She rises and heads for the bathroom.

“I’ll find you something to wear and put it on the counter.  You just go on and get under the water.  A good, warm soak will do wonders for you.”  Savannah watches Delilah nod and disappear behind a closed door.  She rubs her arm; her timer is on fire. She looks down.  Less than an hour to go.  She is loathe to leave Delilah until she can be sure the woman will be okay.

Savannah gets up and rummages through Delilah’s clothes.  She picks out a set of matching, soft, cotton bra and panties, amused at the tiny red hearts scattered over the pink fabric, and equally soft pants in purple and an oversized, black t-shirt she suspects was once Sam’s.  Jealousy and possessiveness flare up in a bright haze of light, startling her into dropping the clothes.  She gives her timer a considering look then picks up the clothes and knocks on the door.




Chapter Thirty-one


2102, Savannah and Delilah, 43 minutes left on timer

Delilah turns the water on and waits for it to warm up.  Her arm is raging mass of electric tingles, burning.  They’re taught at a young age that it means that your time is just about up and your soulmate is close. She remembers what they were taught at the beginning of high school.

Delilah is sitting in the end middle row of desks in the class.  She is smart, talented, but she has a chip on her shoulder.  She doesn’t want the teacher to notice her and she doesn’t want to get to know any of the people in her class.  She fiddles with the fabric she’s tied around her wrist, over her timer.   She knows it sets her apart at a time when girls are just starting to pay attention to the countdown.  She doesn’t want anything to do with it.

The teacher takes roll call then starts on the first lesson of the day.  “Your timer, ladies and gentleman.  That is the topic for this hour.  What do you know about it?”

Hands shoot up all over the room and the teacher starts pointing.  People talk about the obvious – it’s a countdown to meeting your soulmate; you get drawn to the person as your timer comes to the end; it’s a happily ever after.

Delilah snorts at that one, much louder than she intends to.  The teacher tries to draw her into a discussion but she stares stubbornly at the desk and just shakes her head to every question the teacher asks.  Eventually, he gives up.

He holds up his wrist and displays his timer.  It’s counting down days and hours, rather than years and months, like his students’ timers.  “As you get closer and closer to the time, it’s true, you are drawn to where your soulmate is.  For some reason, usually it’s the alpha of the pair that seeks out the beta.”

He smiles at the confused looks on their faces. “In any relationship, you are one half of a relatively equal partnership.  It is your job to hold up your side – to communicate openly, be honest and faithful.  It is your job to love and care for the other person, to accept them unconditionally.  They have all the same tasks.  However, there is always one person who is slightly more dominant.  Usually, it’s the man.

“I know,” he says as the girls in the class bristle with indignation, “we have gender equality in all things. However, it’s a genetic code – men are the caregivers.  In same sex relationships, there is a dominant one, the alpha, and the one who is dominated, the beta.”

“Oooh, kinky,” says someone from the back of the class.  Delilah doesn’t bother to look to see who it is.

“Not at all,” the teacher says with a chuckle.  “In your friendships, there is always a leader and a follower.  Sometimes you take turns, sometimes you don’t.   With your timer, if you’re the alpha of the two, you will be driven to find your soulmate.  Sometimes, they will move closer to you.  I moved here because I could feel her.”  He rubs his arm.  “You will feel changes in yourself as the time gets closer.  You will start preparing for a relationship.  Maybe you’ll set up your home. Find a better job.  Change cities.  Whatever.  You’ll know when you’re in the right place, you’ll feel anchored. Settled.”

He smiles. “What most teachers forget to tell you is what it feels like physically.  Sometimes it’s because they don’t know.  I know.  Right now, my arm is tingling.  It’s a mild tingle. Sometimes it gets stronger, sometimes it doesn’t.  Today, and every day I’m in the school, my arm feels like pins and needle.”

A redhead shoots her hand up.  “Doesn’t that hurt? Doesn’t it get annoying?”

“Maybe for some people,” he says.  “But for me, it’s just a sign that a grand adventure is coming.  I will let you know what it feels like as the time gets closer.”

Delilah shakes out of her musing and rinses the shampoo from her hair. It’s her first act in the shower, every time, and it amazes her how much it changes how she feels just to have her hair clean.  She looks at her arm, at the timer.  Thirty-nine minutes.  Her arm is on fire.  It’s uncomfortable but oddly not painful.  It’s almost… comforting. 

As she washes and shaves, she considers her teachers words, “it’s just a sign that a grand adventure is coming.” Eventually, she smiles.  “All this time,” she says softly, “I’ve been afraid of being my parents.  I’m not my parents.  I’m stronger, wiser, better than they are.  I love me, I like me, and I know that my soulmate will too.  And I will love them with all that I am and make it work.”  She frowns suddenly at the thought that maybe she won’t like them.  Then she brushes her fingers over her timer and the tingles shoot up to her shoulders.  She looks through the wall into the other room.  Could it be Savannah?

She laughs aloud at the thought, pleased. 

Savannah calls through the door.  “Are you alright?”

Delilah turns off the water and checks her timer.  Twenty-two minutes.  “I’m fine.”  She dries herself off and smiles at the clothes as she rubs lotion into her skin.  Comfort clothes.  Savannah knew exactly what she needed.  Of course she did.  She pulls the soft pants on and tugs the t-shirt over her head, hugging herself as she sends a hug to Sam.  She suspects he sent Savannah to her and she’s grateful.  One last glance at her timer.  Eight minutes.  She frowns at herself; didn’t know she could take so long.

She shrugs at herself then almost wrenches the door open and beams at Savannah.

The other woman smiles back.  “Feeling better?”

“I am, thank you.  Do you mind if we go out on deck?”

Savannah tilts her head at the turn around in Delilah’s attitude but nods.  “Sure.  I think the sun is about to set.”

“I think so too.  It’d be nice to see it.”  Delilah hurries into a pair of slip-on flats and tugs Savannah out the door by the hand.




Chapter Thirty-two


  2102, Savannah and Delilah, two minutes left on timer

“Do you think there’s such a thing as love at first sight?” Delilah asks.

“Well, isn’t that what the timer thing is?  Soulmates meeting and falling in love at the first sight of things?”  Savannah looks curious.

“Sure, but what if they stumble on each other long before the timer is due to go off?” The burn in Delilah’s arm begins to change.  It’s becoming more sensual, more arousing.  She looks up at Savannah.

Savannah looks down at Delilah, getting lost in her sea green eyes.  “I suppose that could happen.”

There’s almost an audible click as both timers go from counting minutes and seconds to just counting the seconds.

“Good,” says Delilah as she tips her face up.

Savannah slides her hands up Delilah’s arms as Delilah brings them around her waist. “I agree.”  They stare at each other while the seconds counted down.  They want to see what would happen. 

Jack and the entire crew had gathered by then and they all stand there silently, waiting too.  Most of them still had time on their timers.  Only one member of the crew knew what it would feel like and she can’t wait to see it happen to someone else.  One other had seen it happen, to people who had become best friends first.  This, he felt, was more than that and he wanted to see.


Delilah presses closer to Savannah.


Savannah slips one hand into Delilah’s hair and threads her fingers through it, tangling them there.


Delilah tips her face up just slightly more, in invitation.


Savannah dips her head down.  Her mouth is a scant inch away from Delilah’s.


Both women whimper as their timers burn fiercely for about half a second.


The timers go dead.  For another second nothing happens and then just as Savannah’s lips touch Delilah’s both women jerk as if electrocuted.  They hold each other tightly through the spasms.  The world seems to spin around them and they can feel something happening inside them.  It’s like each of them is being taken apart and woven back together as a whole. 

Delilah could see swirls of light behind her eyes.  It’s a galaxy in her mind.  Everything she’s ever felt, every iota of pleasure, is nothing compared to this.  She gasps as ecstasy shoots through her and only Savannah’s grip in her hair and her grip on Savannah keeps her on her feet.  The light show in her mind finally starts to settle and she starts to figure out how she feels now.

Savannah can’t believe what she feels, what she sees.  The light show in her mind doesn’t matter as much as what’s going on with Delilah’s face.  The looks of awe, surprise and intense pleasure are amazing to Savannah and they’re looks she wants to keep putting on her woman’s face.  Ecstasy shoots through her, too, half a second after Delilah and only Delilah’s grip on her keeps her on her feet.  Everything in her mind and heart settles and she knows.  She knows that this is what is meant to be.  She can feel Delilah’s wonder and curiousity. 

Delilah’s examination of herself takes a second, maybe two.  She smiles at Savannah.

Savannah anxiously scans Delilah’s eyes and is relieved to see nothing but peace.  There’s no fear, no anxiety, nothing but peace and acceptance.  Complete acceptance.  Savannah sighs in relief then yanks Delilah that short distance between them and crushes her to her chest.  She drops her mouth to Delilah’s.  The kiss starts out feather light as she brushes her mouth back and forth but Delilah’s almost inaudible sound of pleasure changes the kiss.

The kiss becomes savage with need and Delilah welcomes, even relishes, the bruising that will come from this kiss.  It wipes the lingering effects of Tom’s attack from her mind and she slides her hands up Savannah’s back, pressing closer to her.  She strokes and caresses as Savannah grips her hair and changes the angle of the kiss in order to taste Delilah better. 

It’s getting hot and heavy when Savannah clues into a rhythmic noise.  The crew is clapping.  Jack pops the cork on a bottle of champagne as the new lovers break apart.  He grins at them when Delilah’s face turns bright red. “I had brought this bottle on board, one from Father’s own cellar, when I learned how little time was left on Delilah’s timer.” 

The purser, whose name is Paul, produces a tray of glasses and Jack pours.  Then he watches as Paul takes glasses to Savannah and Delilah.  Paul hurries back to get his own glass as Jack raises his.  “Congratulations to you both!  I wish you a long life full of love, joy and happiness.  A life that will be the envy of all who are witness to it.” 

Cries of “here, here!” follow his toast and everyone drinks. 

The maid, Julie, rushes over to them, followed by the Captain.   “Oh my!” Julie presses her hand to her heart.  “That was amazing!  It was more impressive than when I met my Abdul.  We had never met before, didn’t know each other at all.  We’re very happy, have been together eighteen years, but we didn’t start out as people who cared about each other.”

Delilah, giddy with joy and the champagne she’d almost chugged, asks, “What did you see?”

“There was this…I don’t know…”  Julie waves her hand around.  “A glow.  It was swirly and bright.”

“It was like the world slowed down just for the two of you,” the Captain added.  “You outshone the sunset with the beauty of your joining.”  All three women stared at the man in astonishment.  He stared blandly back at them.  “What? I can’t have a romantic side?”

Julie, in a complete breach of etiquette, hugged him for a moment.  He allowed it because it wasn’t every day they got to watch two souls join together. 

Savannah’s phone beeps.  She takes it out, frowning.  “Excuse me,” she says to Julie and the Captain.  “I’m sorry, darling,” she adds to Delilah.  “I’m sure I turned this thing off,” she says as she checks it.  It’s Reaper so she thumbs the phone open and glowers at the camera.  She can’t hold the look too long and ends up giggling.  She straightens her look out again.  “What’s up, Reaper?”

“Let me see her!” Reaper demands. 

Savannah obligingly turns the camera to Delilah who grins and waves at Reaper.

He’s joined by Ghost and then Peanut and Taco and Josh. “Put both of you on camera, Loup.”  Ghost makes his own demand.

The Captain and Julie and then the others withdraw as Savannah angles the phone so they’re both in the camera’s range.

Her team grins broadly.  “Look at you,” Peanut gushes.  “You’re all aglow.  We just knew it would be you, Delilah!  I wanted to place bets on it but no one disagreed.”

“Yes, indeed,” Reaper says.  “She had this thing all set up but everyone just knew it would be Delilah for you, Loup.”

“I didn’t!” Delilah laughs. 

“Doesn’t matter what you thought, honey,” Ghost says with a wink.  “The Gods knew what was good for you.”

“So did Sam,” Savannah adds.

“Sam?” Delilah looks surprised.

The group all nod.  “Sam is the one who sent us to you in the first place, when you were having all that trouble with Harris.  He wanted the best and, darling, Loup is the best,” Reaper says. 

Delilah hugs her soulmate.  “Yes she is.”

Savannah cuts the call off and kisses Delilah again.  “We have much to talk about.”

“We do.  I know very little about you, my love, but first… touch me.”




Chapter Thirty-Three


2102 Savannah and Delilah, 15 minutes post-timer

Savannah, who is more than willing to touch the woman she fell in love with the first time she saw her, leads her below decks to her cabin.  They open the door and find that the room has been transformed into a bower meant for lovers.  Drinks chill inside thermal ice buckets, platters of finger food sit on electric cold trays, and warm entrees sit in heated chafing dishes.  The bed has been turned down, the lights dimmed. 

As soon as they’re through the door and it’s latched tight behind them, Savannah has Delilah pinned against it.  She kisses her forehead, her eyes, her cheeks then, finally, her lips.  The kisses are tender, loving.  “I knew it would be you.  I’d hoped it would be you,” she says raggedly.  Emotions rush through her like a fast moving stream.  They bubble up and tumble over one another. 

Delilah, who is having the same rush of emotions, strokes Savannah’s face.  “I didn’t.  I had no idea.  I think I hoped it would be someone like you.  I knew our timers were the same but it never occurred to me it could be you.”  She slips away from Savannah and paces the room a little.  When she turns back, her smile is brittle.  “My parents fought and fought.  They hated each other.  I tried so hard to escape my fate, to stay away from my soulmate.  I didn’t want to have anything to do with him,” she says.  “I got myself into one relationship after another knowing that they’d never last.”

She looks up and meets Savannah’s eyes.  “Then I met you.  Something about you drew me in.  I wanted to spend time with you, to make you smile, to watch you do everything.”  She shrugs.  “After you left, after I didn’t need you anymore, I still needed you.  I found myself rejecting men and seeking out women.  Blondes.”  A grin flashes for a brief moment.  “Not one of them could hold a candle to you.  But I tried.”

Savannah smiles back. She knows most of this, the dating.  She wants the intimacy of holding Delilah, flesh to flesh, but she knows Delilah needs to say it.

Delilah turns again, pacing.  “None of them were you.  They didn’t make me laugh like you.  They were clingy and greedy.  Or all surface and no depth.  Not a single one was as strong as you. They didn’t make me feel safe like you.”  She frowns as guilt swamps her.  “Then I got angry with you.  I thought you had spoiled me for anyone.  I stopped dating.  I figured that it didn’t matter what I did; I’d end up with someone.  I could only pray they were like you.”

Savannah opens her mouth then closes it again as Delilah slashes a hand through the air. “Oh, I was so mad!  Tom was driving me crazy.  He was jealous of everyone.  He got in the way, sabotaged dates, kept touching me, kept asking me out.  And all I could think was, Where is Savannah?  She’d make this stop and I’d be safe and warm.  It was maddening.  And then Tom attacked me.”

Shuddering, Delilah sits on the bed.  “And all I could think was, Where is Savannah?  I want Savannah. I hid in this room and prayed you’d come.”

Savannah crosses the room swiftly and kneels at Delilah’s feet.  “I came, baby.  I could do no other.  I’m sorry I couldn’t be here sooner.  I’m here now and I’m never letting you go again.”

“You couldn’t if you tried.”  Delilah’s smile is bitter.  “I know how it is.  Soulmates are tied to each other, whether they like it or not.”

Scowling, Savannah pushes up to her full height on her knees and grips Delilah’s chin, forcing her to look at her.  “Let me tell you something you had better never forget.  Are you listening?”  Delilah tries to nod, her eyes wide, and Savannah continues.  “I fell in love with you the moment I saw you, distracted and irritated that I was there interrupting your work.  You knew you needed me, needed someone, but you didn’t want anyone getting in the way.”

Savannah releases Delilah and reconsiders.  “Actually, the first moment I saw you, you were white with fear.  Pink splotches on your cheeks told me you were furious too.  Furious about being scared – both because you felt scared and because someone was doing it.  In that moment, I knew I had to protect you.  And then you showed me the rest of you.  Dedicated to your people, determined to continue your work no matter what.”  She gives Delilah the Look.  “That, by the way, was annoying and inconvenient in trying to protect you. It turned into an interesting experience and a lot of fun, until you were attacked.”

Delilah opens her mouth but Savannah shakes her head and picks up the silver star that lies against Delilah’s skin and studies it.  “I sent you this.  I wanted you to have a piece of me.  The seal, that was from the others, but this… I needed to give you a symbol of everything I saw when I looked at you.”  She looks into Delilah’s eyes.  “I see the universe in your eyes.  Everything that could be, everything that will be.  The past, the present, the future.  It’s all you and it always has been.”

Tears well up in Delilah’s eyes and she opens her mouth again.  Savannah presses a kiss to her open mouth then gets up.  “I need to tell you something, something that cannot go beyond these walls.  I’m about to trust you with not only my life but those of my team.”

Delilah nods. “You can tell me anything.  I would never do anything to harm you.”

Savannah nods.  “We are a special black ops team working off the books for Janus.  We do what they cannot. My personal security firm is a front.  The protection we gave you was a favour for Sam.  We were in boot camp together.  He opted out of serving with me, wanting a career as an officer.  He saved my life once and I owed him.  When he asked, I showed up at your office.  I couldn’t come sooner this time because I was on a mission I had to complete.”  She stops talking and waits.

There’s a long moment of silence while Delilah studies the floor, thinking.  Finally, she looks up and says, “I guess if we’re going to have children I’d better carry them.”

Savannah’s mind goes blank.  She doesn’t know what to say to that.  She has never thought about having children, she could never carrying a child and do what she loves to do.  She waits so long to say something that Delilah starts chewing her lip.  Another moment passes and then she bursts out laughing.  “Children!  I’d never even thought about it.  I didn’t expect you had.”

Delilah chuckles and shrugs.  “I am a girl.  It’s crossed my mind.”  She rises and goes to Savannah.  “You had some very pretty things to say,” she says.  “Normally, I would count it all as flattery but from you… I can feel your sincerity.” She taps her chest.  “I can actually feel it like it was my own.”  She wraps her arms around Savannah’s waist and, when Savannah’s arms come around her, she sighs and lays her head on Savannah’s shoulder.  “I have absolute faith in you and I swear to you I will do my best to make you happy.”

Savannah lays her cheek on Delilah’s head.  “I swear I’ll make you happy too.  I will do my best to communicate better than your parents did with each other.” She leans back and looks in Delilah’s eyes.  “We are not your parents.  You are not them, you are nothing like them.  I looked into them when I was researching you before I took your case.  They are bad people.  People who can treat each other that way and treat a child the way they did you are bad.  We will not be them.”

“I know,” Delilah says softly as she slides one arm up to hook it around Savannah’s neck.  She uses it to nudge Savannah’s face to hers.  “Now, kiss me.”  She wants to add become my lover but the words stick in her throat.  It’s not that she doesn’t want Savannah as her lover.  It just seems like a corny thing to say.

Savannah’s mouth ravages Delilah and she takes a fierce pleasure in what is first a sound of surprise that quickly becomes a sound of pleasure.  The first soft moan is followed by a gasp as Delilah begins to melt against Savannah. 

Savannah cups Delilah’s face in both hands in order to better direct the kiss.  She strokes her thumbs across Delilah’s cheekbones as she nibbles on Delilah’s lower lip then slides her tongue across the abused flesh.  Again, she kisses Delilah’s cheeks then softly slides her cheek across one of Delilah’s before sucking lightly on her earlobe.

Delilah whimpers softly with need as she tugs Savannah’s shirt up, seeking the soft, supple skin she’s sure is beneath the clothing.  She lays her hands on Savannah’s back and slides them up.  She unhooks the bra that gets in her way and is pleased to feel Savannah shudder in response.  Emboldened, she struggles against the need to fall limp and surrender everything to Savannah and fights to give as good as she gets.  She strokes her fingertips up Savannah’s back and down again with her fingernails, very lightly. 

Savannah shudders again and groans.  The sound vibrates against Delilah’s throat just before Savannah pulls away.  Savannah reaches forward and tugs Delilah’s shirt up over her head.  As soon as her arms are released, Delilah reaches behind herself to undo her bra strap.  She tugs her bra down her arms and watches as Savannah yanks her own shirt over her head, taking the bra over it.

After the last bit of fabric hits the ground they stand there, staring each other in the eyes.  Then, as one, their eyes drop.  Delilah moves her eyes over the curve of Savannah’s shoulder then down over her chest.  Savannah’s breasts are small, perky and high, tipped with pale pink nipples.  Savannah is slender and muscular.  Her abs are well defined and she has a subtle hourglass shape. 

Savannah takes in Delilah’s curvier form, loving the softness of it, knowing Delilah’s physical strength and endurance.  The curve of her body hides Delilah’s inner strength as much as the curve of her smile does.  Finally, Savannah turns her eyes to Delilah’s breasts.  They’re larger than her own, tipped with dusky pink nipples. 

With no small amount of reverence, Savannah reaches for Delilah again.  She strokes the fingers of one hand over Delilah’s face, down her throat and over her collarbone.  She skims both hands over Delilah’s ribs and down to her waist.  She brings them back up over Delilah’s belly to cup the heavy looking breasts in her hands. 

Delilah’s breath catches in her throat. In the next second she lets it out on a soft moan as Savannah brushes her thumbs over her nipples.  Delilah watches Savannah’s reaction

It’s that soft moan that galvanizes Savannah into action.  She practically lunges forward, her need written all over her face.  Delilah shrieks a little, part fear, part glee, part arousal, and tumbles backward towards the bed.  She lands on her ass then her back as Savannah follows her down to capture a nipple in her mouth.

Eventually, they get to eating and talking more. 

And later, people on board tried hard to sleep and not be affected, or maybe infected, by the joy the newly mated couple were sharing.




Chapter Thirty-four


2102 Savannah and Delilah, 8 months, 21 days post-timer

“Oh hell no!  I’m not calling Loup.”  Reaper stares at Ghost in horror.  “You want me to interrupt their honeymoon?”

Ghost taps the tablet where the orders are blinking at them.  “It comes from the highest of the high.  It’s a favour but we gotta do it.”

Reaper shakes his head hard.  “No.  I’m not calling her.”

“Then I will.”

“No! You can’t do it!”  Reaper yanks the tablet out of Ghost’s hand.  He reads quickly.  “Forty-eight hours.  We can give her another twenty-four.  And look, the job is in Scotland.  It’s not far from where they are in Glasgow.  Let them be.”

“Trust me,” Ghost says, “Lily will still be there for Loup.”  They’d been trying to find a nick for Delilah but the one she already had was the only one that suited her.  She’d truly bloomed with Savannah at her side. 

Reaper rubs his face.  “Twenty-two hours and we’ll get mobile, get the research started.”

“You know she likes her own.”

“I’m not letting you call her now, Ghost.  Come on, man, you remember what it’s like.”

“And you don’t know yet.” Ghost glowered at him but relented. “Fine.  But let’s get moving.”

Twenty-four hours later, Savannah answers her phone.  She glares at Reaper as Delilah snuggles close, draping one thigh over Savannah’s and wrapping an arm around her possessively.  “What do you want, Reaper.”  It’s not a question, it’s a dare to interrupt the honeymoon.  They had plans to visit the castle and Castle Row. 

“You can’t have her, Reaper.”  Delilah smiles tiredly, an edge of smug satisfaction making it seem silky.

“I’m afraid I have no choice, Lily.  This one comes from the Board.” 

The two women could hear the capital B and they both knew that it meant the top brass of Janus.  They disentangled themselves from each other and sat up.  “What’s up?” Savannah asked.

“Search and rescue.  Number Three’s daughter was kidnapped.”

Savannah groans and presses mute on the phone, muting both her mic and Reaper’s voice.

Delilah indicates the phone.  “Reaper’s pretty cute when you can’t hear his voice.”  Her joke is out of place but she can’t help it.  When she’s tense, she becomes a smartass.

“Lily, I’m sorry but I have to take this.  I can’t say no to these orders.”  Savannah’s face is full of regret.  “Please understand.  Don’t be mad.”

“Oh, Sav, you should know that I do understand.  This is your career.  You are my hero, baby.  Go be someone else’s.  I have my cameras.”  Delilah grins.  “I brought my work on our honeymoon, why shouldn’t you?”

Savannah chuckles.  “That’s true, very true.  Thank you, my darling Lily.”  Delilah’s camera had gone everywhere with them.  Two usually, a digital and the 35mm.  They have some very lovely photos of the places they’ve seen, and some totally touristy pictures, but so far, Savannah’s favourite pictures were the ones Delilah had taken in their hotel room.  Not to mention the shoot on a picnic blanket at the top of 164 high Titan Crane at sunrise.  They’d climbed in the darkest part of the night, right before dawn, hiding from the security that patrols the grounds.  The security had never even thought to look up.

Then, Savannah remembers, they’d made love and Delilah had taken pictures of the blush of pleasure on Savannah’s skin as the blush of sunrise brightened the sky.  It was a measure of Delilah’s faith in her that she’d allowed Savannah to use the camera to take pictures of her.   Her Lily was a firecracker of sensuality, sexual creativity and need.  Climbing back down and getting back to the walking trails along the River Clyde – and looking like that’s where they’d been all along – had been trickier. 

They’d had a blast and were planning another daring pre-dawn photo shoot somewhere else for their first wedding anniversary.

“Are you going to be alright without me?” Savannah asks.

Delilah frowns.  “No.  I’m going to wither away without your touch.  I’ll fade to black without your beauty in my eyes.  I shall crumble to dust without your taste to nourish me.”  She chuckles at the expression on Savannah’s face.  “Yes, I’ll be fine without you for a few days.  I will miss you fiercely but I will be alright.”

Savannah is still laughing as she unmutes the now annoyed Reaper.  “Where are you?”

Both women jumped when the door shook with the assault of a very large fist on it.  Delilah scrambles from the bed, grabs a robe on the way to the door and is still belting it when she wrenches the door open.  “Listen here, you buffoons!  This is a very nice hotel and it is the ass crack of dawn!  If you wake up our neighbours I’ll spank you!” she hisses she words at them like an angry cat.

Reaper and Ghost duck their head, chastised, and Peanut quietly cheers from behind them.  “I told them to be quiet,” she says as she pushes past them and drops a heavy case onto the nearest chair. She picks it up again as Delilah opens the bedroom’s other door, the one to the rest of the suite. “At least they listened to me well enough that they called before we barged in here.  We were in the elevator.”  She hugs Delilah then turns to her boss.  “Hey Loup. I’m real sorry about this.”

“Nah.  It’s our lot in life.”  Savannah pulls her clothes on, half listening as Delilah calls room service.  “No, baby, I want the full breakfast today,” she says as Delilah orders fruit, juice and coffee.  “Make sure there’s enough for them to.”

Delilah nods and squeezes Savannah’s hand and changes the order.   She also asks for another table to be brought up. “No, no.  What’s the largest table you have that will fit in here?”   She listens for a moment then turns and eyes the room.  “That will work, thank you.”

“What have we got?” Savannah asks as she’s handed a tablet.  She likes to hear the report.

“Number Three’s daughter, Alyssa, was taken outside the club she runs.  The security cameras seemed to see nothing.  No witnesses that can report anything unusual.  A long black car stopped and she got in.  She hasn’t been seen since.”  Ghost’s voice is a rumble.

“So, if a car picked her up, as usual, how did anyone know she’s missing?”  Savannah looks up from the tablet.

“Because she is, despite her clubbing, a good girl.  She calls her mother every morning and they share a conversation over a cup of coffee.  She didn’t call her mother on Tuesday.  It is now Thursday,” Reaper says.

“Has someone checked out her place?”  Savannah watches Delilah come back into the room and notices that her mate has dressed in worn jeans and a pink ombre sweater.  Savannah thinks Delilah looks hot. 

“Yeah, Loup.  Josh went.  He said the place didn’t appear disturbed on the surface but he went over it with a fine toothed comb with the help of the girl’s bodyguard and maid.  Nothing is quite in the right spot, they say.  It looks like someone tossed it then tried to make it look like it they were never there.”

Savannah frowns as Delilah goes to the door and cracks it open a little.  “Where was Alyssa’s bodyguard?”  She raises a hand to forestall an answer as Delilah signals from the door that three people are about to enter. 

It doesn’t take long for the extra table to be put in place and all the food Delilah ordered to be set out.  The servers are tipped generously and encouraged to keep their mouths shut about the equipment in the room.  The door is closed and locked behind them and Savannah is graciously accepting a cup of coffee from Delilah before she repeats her question to Reaper. 

“Alyssa owns the clubs she goes to.  The bodyguard is a woman, goes with her and acts like her best friend.  She says she came to in a bathroom stall with a hangover to beat all hangovers.  She was concerned about her charge but didn’t say anything until after the breakfast call was missed because she didn’t want to worry the family if the only thing that happened was that Alyssa went and got laid.”

“Did you check her blood?” 

Peanut nods as she taps on another tablet.  She shows Savannah the results.  “Yeah and there was nothing in it.  She did, however, have a puncture wound on the back of her neck, just under her hairline.  She says she never felt it.  Looks like a dart wound.”

“Hmm…”  Savannah frowns in thought.

“Number Three’s security force found some news of her kidnapping on the dark net.  There are some videos that have been posted.  They traced the origin to Scotland but that’s as close as they got.  We took another look and Josh got it pinned to Bathgate.”

Savannah sighs.  Bathgate is a small city better called a large town.  It started as a bedroom community for Glasgow and Edinburgh and has a large train station.  It may be small but there are still thousands of people there.  She rubs her face.  “How the hell are we going to find her?”

Reaper clears his throat.  “Well, uh… It seems that Number Three has a habit of implanting tracking devices in his family members when they are tiny.”

“What?”  Savannah narrows her eyes at Reaper.  “She has a tracking device?  What the hell do they need us for then?”

“It went dead about eight hours after she should have called her mother.  The last location was Stirling.  Three hours after that the video was posted to the dark net.”

“Narrow it down!  You’re better than ‘somewhere in Bathgate’, Reaper.” Savannah snarls, getting pissed off about random pieces of information and wasted time on top of the intrusion into her honeymoon.

Delilah sits on the arm of Savannah’s chair and strokes Savannah’s shoulder with one hand as she holds her other hand out for the tablet.  “May I see the video?”

The team look at one another before looking at Savannah.  She nods.  “Sure. Peanut, fire it up for her.”

Peanut takes the tablet from Savannah and finds the video.  She hands it to Delilah and watches her, wondering what the woman thought she could do that they hadn’t.

Delilah smiles at Peanut.  “Thank you.  I’ve been all over Scotland, maybe I can recognize where this is.”

“I don’t know.  It looks pretty ambiguous.  Like everywhere else with trees.”

Delilah taps the play button. 

A large, seemingly empty room is at the beginning.  A chair sits in front of a curved wall.  The wall has a moldering wall covering clinging to it in tenacious but tattered strips. Paint that looks like it used to be bright red but is now the colour of dried blood in most places covers the door frame on the right side of the screen. A filthy, dusty, rusted steel ceiling is overhead.

Two masked men escort a woman into view.  She is dressed for clubbing, though the outfit is torn.  Her makeup is running down her face and her hair as lost most of its pins.  She wrenches herself from their grip and sits in the chair.  “I know the damn drill,” she snarls.

“My name is Alyssa Damon.  These assholes think they can wheedle money from my family, or the Corporation.  They can try but,” her voice cracks and she clears her throat.  “They can try but I know my father.  He doesn’t negotiate with terrorist types.  Ever.”  She glares at someone off camera.  “These twelve want a hundred million credits and control of the Middle East division.  They all think they’re going to survive this.” She’s cut off further by a backhand from the man closest to her.  Tears well in her eyes but still, she holds the defiant look on her face.

The two men lash her to the chair with ropes at her wrists and ankles.  They show a noose to the camera then drop the rope over her head and tie it to the back of the chair.  Then they cut her clothes off and start to touch her.

Delilah stops the video, shaken.  “I know where she is.”

Instantly, everyone turns to her.  Savannah wraps an arm around Delilah’s waist.  “You do?  Where is she?”



Chapter Thirty-five


2102 Savannah and Delilah, 8 months, 21 days post-timer

 “Where is she, baby?” Savannah asks Delilah.

“The video was shot in the old West Lothian College.  They closed the college about seventy years ago because almost no one was attending.  A new school had been built in Stirling, upgraded everything and that’s where people were going.   Anyway, I was there a few years ago photographing it for a personal project.”  Delilah rubs her face.  “I think that’s Pavilion B.  I’d have to look at my photos to be sure.”

“Do you want me to send you a screenshot of the room?” Peanut asks.

“Yes please.  Somewhere in the opening ten seconds.”  Delilah takes Savannah’s hand and kisses her fingertips before getting up and finding her computer bag.  In the bag is a small zippered binder.  Inside the binder, in sheets of plastic with little pouches all over them, are small flash drives containing Delilah’s photo shoots.

Savannah frowns.  “I don’t want you getting involved, Lily.”

Delilah shakes her head.  “I’m not going to go anywhere with you; I will stay right here.  However, if I can help pinpoint where she is, you’ll find her faster.  Hopefully before she’s truly hurt.”

Peanut wonders how having your clothes cut off and then being fondled against your will isn’t being hurt but keeps her mouth shut.  “Knowing where in the complex she is will help, Loup.”  Peanut holds up her own tablet for inspection.  On it is an old map of the campus.  There are ten buildings plus two parking lots and an open courtyard.

Savannah rubs her face.  “Okay, fine.  Do it quickly please.”

Delilah gets the file from Peanut and finds the appropriate drive. She plugs the drive into her computer and opens her recognition software.  She puts the video still into one part of the software and opens the drive with another part.  The software starts sorting the images.  It doesn’t take long for the software to spit out options. 

“Yep, just what I thought.  It’s the old restaurant the culinary school used to run for staff and students.   It’s in Pavilion B.”  Delilah turns her computer around and displays almost identical images.

“Thank you, baby,” Savannah says.  Her mind turns immediately to how best to get in and get out without causing any more damage than strictly necessary.

Delilah nods with a smile.  “I’m going to sit on the balcony and read.”

Savannah, Reaper, Ghost and Peanut were already planning and didn’t notice.

It took them two hours to make a plan.  When it is complete and they’re sure of the details Savannah first calls her team in Edinburgh for tools and weapons, then she calls Number Three’s private line.  To her surprise, he answered himself.  She instantly goes to attention and gives him a salute.  “Mr. Damon, Sir. Savannah Lopez, at your service.  We have a plan to retrieve your daughter.  We should have her out of terrorist hands within three hours with no loss of life.”

“And what if your plan fails, Captain?”

“They won’t, Sir.”

“What if they do?”  Daniel Damon, grandson to actor Matt Damon, scowls at Savannah.

Her back goes up and she gives him a cold smile.  “They won’t, Sir.” She holds up a hand to forestall his next repetition.  “In the event that we cannot capture the kidnappers, we will decimate them.  And your daughter will be returned to you.”

“She’d better be in one piece.”  The man’s voice was a snarl.  It broke a little on the end and it told Savannah that he’d seen the video.

She softens a little.  “Sir, we cannot bring her home in any other shape than that which we find her in.  We will do our best to repair any injuries she may or may not have received and then we will bring her home to you.”

“I want you, personally, to return her.”

Savannah’s mouth opens to object.  She closes it again, takes a deep breath then merely nods.  “Yes, Sir.”  He hangs up and Savannah rubs her face.  “Okay, let’s move out.” 

As the others gather their things together, Savannah goes out to the small balcony, where Delilah is reading the paper.  “We’re getting ready to go, Lily.”

Delilah smiles.  “Alright, Sav.  Be safe.”  She puts her eReader down and stands as Savannah digs her fingers into her hair and tugs her to her feet. 

Savannah takes possession of Delilah’s mouth in a punishing kiss that makes fires ignite low in both their bellies.  Delilah whimpers when Savannah breaks the kiss.  “You’d better come back to me in one piece,” Delilah says fiercely.

“I cannot promise that, Lily.”

“I know.”  Delilah walks back into the room with Savannah and gives Ghost, Reaper and Peanut the Look.  “You’d better look after my woman as well as she’ll look after you.”

“No worries, Chérie,” Reaper says. “We all know you’ll skin us with our own knives if anything should happen to her.” 

Savannah chuckles.  “What will you do today, Lily?”

“I think I will go to Tinto Hill, maybe take the ferry to Ailsa Craig.  See what I can see there.”

“Alright.  Be safe, darling.”

And that, Delilah thinks as she watches them leave, is how it feels to be a military wife.  This rescue shouldn’t be too bad, she hopes. 

Savannah looks over the map again as they pull into Bathgate.  “There’s a road that runs around the college, car parks on the east and west sides of the compound.  Pavilion B, where they are holding her, is the second of four buildings, from west to east, across the courtyard from the main administration building.”

Reaper nods.  It hasn’t been a school in close to sixty years, after a bomb gutted that admin center.  “They’ll probably have men in the courtyard, around back and in buildings eight and ten.”

“Only if they have enough men.”

“Alyssa said there were twelve,” Ghost points out.  “If it were me, I’d have three guarding her, two on each side of the building and one roaming whatever floor they don’t have her on.”

“Delilah says the building only has the one floor.”  Savannah taps the tablet.  “We stick to the plan.”  The car comes to a stop at the train station, pulling up beside a black van.  They pile out as the van doors open. 

Taco and Josh step out.  “We got everything you wanted, Loup. We ready?”

“Yep, let’s go.”



Chapter Thirty-six


2102 Savannah and Delilah, 8 months, 21 days post-timer

The team comes to the intersection that leads into the college grounds.  There are several large bushes screening the college from the main highway and that’s where they leave the van.  Now dressed to conceal themselves and wrapped in body arm, each team member makes sure they are armed well before heading out.

Savannah has her favourite gun, plus several mags of extra ammunition, a knife tucked into a sheath on her belt and another strapped to her calf.  She goes over the plans one more time.  “Taco, you and Josh will take Pavilion A, Reaper and Ghost, C and Peanut and I will go into B.  The plan is to subdue and capture.  Killing is a last resort.  Transport will be here in ninety minutes.”

“Aye, Loup.”  One after another they acknowledge her orders.

The team slips through the bushes and across the overgrown fields.  They split up as they reached the pavilions and Savanah and Peanut survey the building, trying to find the best way in.  A broken door along one side gets them in. 

Immediately, Peanut leaps on to the back of the guard that happens to cross their path.  She jabs him with one of the tranquilizer darts she carries.  She prefers the dart gun to one with bullets and she carries a few extra darts on her belt.  She rides the guard to the ground then trusses him up and lets Savannah drags him to the shadows.  Together, the pair of women, one tall and lithe, one short and curvy, both strong, talented and determined, creep through the building. 

Savannah holds up a hand.  “Voices,” she whispers.  She opens the small tablet in her pocket and checks the floor plan again.  There are two blue dots, marking Savannah and Peanut’s locations and four red dots, marking the other people in the building.  “They’re in the center.” Savannah’s voice is so soft Peanut has to strain to hear her. “Go around this way.  I’ll give you three minutes then I’m going in.”

Peanut nods then darts off.  Savannah watches her go until she can’t see her anymore then begins counting in her head.  When she reaches one hundred and twenty seconds she begins walking and at one eighty she steps into the light.

Two guns are immediately pointed at her.  One is pointed at Alyssa’s head.  The man holding that gun smiles.  “Why, it’s Savanah Lopez.”  He takes the gun from Alyssa’s head.  He knows Savannah well enough to know that she knows the threat is empty – there’s no money if there’s a dead body.

“Jeremiah Presley.  Why am I not surprised?”  Savannah strides toward him, ignoring the guns that followed her.  She stops only when the two men impede her forward progress.  She lets them frisk her and remove her weapons.  She smiles at them when they’re done touching her.  “I promise that I will pay you back for that, children.” 

They smirk but step aside to let her go talk to Jeremiah.  He appraises her.  “You look happy.  Last time we were together you were frustrated with the way time was passing.  Have you met your soulmate?”

Savannah ignores the way Alyssa is whimpering at her and lunging and chuckles at Jeremiah.  “Yes I have.  She’s a delightful woman.  Gorgeous, talented.  You’d hate her; she’s much too smart for the likes of you.”

Jeremiah growls, his eyes darkening with anger.  He quickly gains control of himself.  “I thought that you wanted her out of here.”

“Oh,” Savannah says consideringly, drawing out the sound.  “I did but now, all I want is you.”  She can hear Peanut talking to the others and knows they’re on their way in.  She saunters closer to Jeremiah, getting in his space.

He backs up a little bit.  “You can’t have either of us.  You can have her after I get my money and my helicopter.” 

“Oh dear, Jeremiah,” Savannah says, getting close again, “who said you were getting either.”  She gives him a sunny smile.  “You should know I get what I want.”

“Grab her,” he says to his goons.

She lets them.  She lets Jeremiah slap her.  Then she spits in his face.  She needs him distracted.  “You really think you could defeat me?  The only reason you managed to get a hand on me is because these two asshats are holding me in place.”

It takes a moment but then Jeremiah’s lip curls in a snarl.  “Release her,” he tells the asshats.  “Let’s go, Savannah.  You and me.  Winner take all.”

“Let me get this straight. When I win, I get the girl and you and the asshats.”  Savannah cocks a brow at him.

Jeremiah laughs.  “When I win, I get to leave with the money, my country, my men and my chopper.”

Savannah shrugs. “Sure.  If you win, I’ll let you go.”

“Boss…” Asshat Number One says.

“What!” Jeremiah snaps the word out like a whip as he sinks into a fighting stance.

“I don’t think this is such a good idea.”

“Good thing I don’t pay you to think.” Jeremiah dismisses the man and focuses on Savannah.

She is in her own fighting pose – one foot back, weight resting on the back foot, her body is twisted slightly to the side, her arms are bent, hands in loose fists – and she’s waiting for him to take the first move.  She doesn’t have to wait long.

Jeremy rushes her, pushing his weight from his back foot to his front as he brings his back leg around, aiming for a vicious kick to her middle. 

Savannah flows forward into his space and slaps his foot out of the air with her front hand.  She twists slightly and gives him a slap in the face.  As he stumbles she moves back into resting pose, grinning.  There’s a cough from one of the men watching and she can hear a snicker in her ear. 

Jeremiah regains his footing and growls, bright red with fury.  The handprint on his face stands out as a stark white mark for a moment before the blood rushes back in.  He forgets finesse and takes a run at her.

There’s a series of exchanged punches then Savannah gets an elbow in his nose.  At the crunch and subsequent rush of blood, she says, “Peanut.”

It doesn’t take long for the asshat twins to hit the floor with a thud. 

Jeremiah is bent over, screaming at her.  “You bitch!  You broke my nose!” 

“Don’t worry,” she says, “there’s a lovely medical ward where you’re going.  They’ll fix you up.” 

“I’m not going anywhere with –” he slaps at his neck and pulls away a tiny dart.   He falls a second later, unconscious. 

Savannah tugs him into a sitting position so he doesn’t drown in his own blood before the squad gets there to take them away.  Then she unties Alyssa.

Alyssa removes the gag and rushes over to Jeremiah.  She kicks him hard in the leg then runs to the other two and kicks them in the ribs.  Savannah finally catches her and holds her still.   Alyssa starts sobbing.

“It’s alright now.  You’re safe.”  Savannah keeps Alyssa, who is nearly nude, turned to her body and waits as Reaper pulls a jumpsuit from the pack on his back and hands it to her.  “Here, let’s get you covered up. Then we’ll call your father.”

It’s an exhausted Savannah that returns to Delilah a few hours later.  She had handed over Jeremiah and his goons to a Janus cleanup crew and taken Alyssa home to her parents.  Her face was swollen in places and she knew her ribs had a few bruises.

None of it matters though, not in this moment, not with Delilah holding her and loving her.  This is where she wants to be for the rest of her life.  She wants to be where she can be on a mission and know, without a doubt, that there is something worth living for, worth surviving for. 

Delilah strokes Savannah’s back.  She finds it hard to believe she’d ever doubted the wisdom of the timer, that she’d ever wanted anything other than this.  She was whole and blissfully happy.  There was nowhere else she wanted to be than right here, in this moment, loving and being oved by this woman.

The End





2104 Savannah and Delilah, 30 months, 23 days post-timer

Savannah props Delilah up in her arms, trying not to hurt her.  Delilah’s feet are in stirrups and the doctor sits between her legs.  Savannah and the doctor both say, “Push!”

“I can’t!” Delilah wails.  It’s been thirty-two hours of labour.  The last ten have been with her at nine centimeters dilated and eighty per cent effaced.  She’d stopped there and nothing they did could encourage the baby to be born.  Her contractions had been ninety seconds apart at most.  She was exhausted.

“You can, baby.  I know you can. I know you’re tired but you have to.  I want to see our baby.”  Savannah lowers her voice and whispers in Delilah’s ear.  “The sooner you have her the sooner you will heal and the sooner I can make love to you.” 

Delilah goes still.  She hadn’t been able to stand being touched for the last few weeks, even her clothing had bugged her. She had insisted that her doctor change hospitals too.  She couldn’t tell anyone why, just that they needed to be here, in this hospital.  The baby was eight days late too.  She carried guilt inside her along with all the frustration of not being able to love on Savannah.  Tears roll down her face as she bears down, pushing as hard as she can.

“…five…four…three….two…one!  Okay, relax,” the doctor says.  He gets up to check the monitors and confer with one of the nurses.  The baby’s heart beat is high, like she anxious about something, and still she doesn’t want to come out.

Savannah eases Delilah back on to the pillows then picks up a cool damp cloth and wipes her brow.  She feels guilty too.  A year ago they decided to have a baby.  They couldn’t think of any better donors than Reaper and Ghost. The clinic had mixed the sperm so there was no way to know, unless the baby comes out dark skinned, who the father is.  That’s the way Savannah and Delilah wanted it. 

They had decided that they would use Delilah’s egg and that Delilah would carry the baby to term.  Savannah’s career did not lend itself to pregnancy.  She was in constant danger and neither woman wanted to risk their child.  But Delilah encountered problems late in the pregnancy.  She began retaining fluid, her hips and lower back had started to ache.  She’d had to stop working almost entirely because she couldn’t be on her feet for longer than a few minutes, never mind bending over or crouching to get particular shots. 

She’d been relegated to her office with occasional forays into the studio to do portraits.  Delilah had spent much of the last month with her feet up.  She’d hated almost every minute of it. The only saving grace had been Savannah.  She’d taken care of her, pampered her, catered to almost every whim.  And when she couldn’t be there, she’d left Betty had been there instead. 

The couple had lain together at night with Delilah curled against Savannah while Savannah talked to the baby and stroked her belly.  The baby had calmed under Savannah’s touch and it was only then that Delilah could sleep.

Now, the doctor rolls his stool back in place between Delilah’s feet and watches the contraction monitor.  “Get ready,” he says. 

Savannah helps Delilah sit up and Delilah grabs her knees.  “Let’s go,” Delilah says.

The doctor nods.  “Now!  Push, Delilah.”

Delilah pushes, straining to help her daughter come into this world.  She listens to the doctor and Savannah count down then just before they get to eight, the doctor exclaims, “She’s crowning!  Come on, Delilah, you can do it.  Take another breath and push!”  He picks up a scalpel and makes a quick incision in Delilah just below the baby’s head.

Savannah peers between Delilah’s knees.  “Oh wow!  How are you doing this?” she asks, like so many millions of birthing partners in the past.   She returns her attention to Delilah and kisses her temple.  “Come on, baby, she’s almost here.  Push!”

With a deep breath, Delilah pushes again.  “The head is almost out.  Just a little more and then you can rest for a second.”  The doctor is encouraging.

Delilah makes another effort and is rewarded when the baby screams her fury.  “Oh my Gods,” Delilah cries.  “Listen to her!”

The doctor and nurses are amused.  “Opinionated already,” says the head nurse.

“Let’s see if we can get those shoulders out.”  The doctor puts gently but firm hands on the baby’s head.  “Come on now.  Push! Push!”

Savannah leans into Delilah.  “Come on, honey, one more.  Push!”

Delilah takes a deep breath and pushes again.  She yells wordlessly as the shoulders pass from her, first the left then the right.  She collapses against Savannah as the rest of their baby girl slides from her. 

Savannah guides Delilah back to the pillows, crying and laughing at the same time.  “You did it!  Oh my Gods, you really did it.”

“We did it,” Delilah corrects.  “We have a baby!”

“Do you want to cut the cord?” the doctor asks Savannah as he lays the baby on Delilah’s belly.

“Absolutely.”  Savannah cuts the cord, wincing a little, afraid it will hurt their baby.  She knows it won’t, knows all the birthing information she could get her hands on but she can’t help but worry.

Delilah strokes the black hair on the baby’s head then looks lost when the nurse apologetically takes her away.  “Bring her back, quickly!” Delilah demands.

“We’re just going to clean her up, weigh her and make sure she’s as perfect as she looks,” the nurse says.

The doctor is stitching up the episiotomy as Savannah wraps her arms around Delilah.  “Gods, I love you.  Thank Hera it went so smoothly.”

“She’s beautiful, just like you.”  Delilah smiles at her soulmate.

“More beautiful than me.  But then, so are you, so it’s not a surprise.”  Savannah turns as the nurse approaches.

“Hold your daughter, Mamma,” the nurse says as she carefully lays the tiny baby girl in Savannah’s arms.  “What is her name?  Do you have one yet?”

“Rosalynn,” Delilah says, pronouncing it Rose-a-lynn.  “Rosalynn Savannah Lopez.”

“That’s beautiful,” the nurse says.  She smiles at the new mothers as Savannah turns to Delilah and they begin to coo.  She’s seen hundreds of new parents in her twenty years as a nurse in obstetrics and she feels a tug on her heart every single time.  The day she doesn’t is the day she’ll switch careers.

Two days later.

Edinburgh’s psychic is in the nursery, along with the ones who create and attach the timers.  She comes to Rosalyn and smiles at the parents standing on the other side of the small crib.  “You two are very happy.  Everyone can see that.  This child is a lucky girl to have such loving parents.”

“Thank you,” Savannah says, speaking for both of them.  “What do you see for her?”

The psychic looks down in the crib and strokes Rosalyn’s cheek.  “Rosalyn Savannah.  Darling girl you have such a name to grow into.  It is beautiful but also strong, as you will need to be.” Rosalyn shouts at her and the psychic chuckles.  She rubs her thumb over Rosalyn’s right inner wrist.  “I know, darling girl but it will be over soon.” 

Delilah and Savannah look at each other uneasily.  “What?  What will be over soon?  We haven’t been able to get her to settle down,” says Delilah.  “She always seems so uncomfortable.”

“Of course,” answers the psychic with a smile.  “Her arm hurts.”  She looks back at the timer person.  “There is no need to put a timer on this one.”  She looks back at Savannah and Delilah.  “Wait here, I won’t be but a moment.”

The couple look at each other, worried.  “What’s g oing on?” Savannah demands of the timer creator.

He shrugs.  “I don’t know.  She’s never left the nursery before.”

It’s a few tense moments before the psychic returns.  She is accompanied by a pair of confused, concerned parents carrying a bundle of crying baby boy.  She indicates Rosalyn’s crib.  “Set him down in here with her.” 

The mother holds her baby just a little closer as she moves towards Delilah, Savannah and Rosalyn.  “I…I don’t know.”

“Trust me, dear.  Please put Tomas with Rosalyn.”  The psychic’s voice is firm.

With a deep breath, the mother lays Tomas next to Rosalyn.  Immediately, both babies go quiet.  They wriggle, trying to get closer to each other and Delilah, who is catching on, moves Rosalyn over a little bit.  She puts the babies’ right hands together.

The affect is immediate.  Light swirls around both children as their souls blend together.

The timer maker’s jaw drops.  “That never happens.  It’s incredible.  How is this possible?”

“Yes.  How is this possible?” Savannah asks.  “I thought people had to go through trials, grown and mature into the person they need to be for the other.”

The psychic nods as Tomas’s parents come to stand by the crib and stare down at the babies.  “It is true, a person must become the one their soulmate needs them to be.  However, rarely, very rarely, souls are born nearly perfect.  It is that person who meets their soulmate early, because it is then that their soulmate needs them.”  She smiles down at the babies and strokes Rosalyn’s head.  “Rosalyn is such a soul.  Born again after a life of hardship and pain into a life of pure love and light, she is whole and pure already.”

She looks from the babies to the parents.  “Tomas and Rosalyn will need all of you for the trials they must endure. Tomas needs Rosalyn most of all.  Be prepared for you will need to parent them together.”  She looks at Tomas’s parents.  “Do not worry, the new home will be good for all of you.  Take the job Savannah will offer you, Paulo.  You will enjoy it.”  With those words, the psychic wanders off to the other babies.

The four new parents look at one another then Savannah holds her hand out to Paulo.  “My name is Savannah Lopez and I work for Janus.  This is my mate and wife, Delilah.  She is a photographer.  The one known to the world as D.D.”

Paulo shakes Savannah’s hand as his wife gasps.  “I am Paulo Vallespin and this is my wife Sophia.  I am with the local peacekeeping force.  Sophia is an amateur photographer trying to improve her skills.”

Delilah smiles.  “I am sure we will work very well together at raising our children.”

In the crib, as their parents talk, the two newly mated babies smile at each other.