Good Riddance 2016

Hello!

I know it’s been quite a while, again, but school has taken dominion over all else.  I want to discuss the year with you though.  It’s been…bi-polar at best.  Wild swings up and down.  

There have been 130+ worldwide celebrity deaths.  The American battle for president was between H. Clinton and Trump and Trump won.  I don’t care to follow politics but what the fuck was America thinking? 

None of that affects me personally though. I know what’s going on, for the most part, but my concern is my family, immediate and extended.  And we have had some pretty major events.  Here are some of them…

The Ups:

I published Highland Wolves 2.  I will be making a change to it though, one that has a major impact on book 4.  If you have a copy of the current one, it will become special in the next few days. I will keep you appraised. 

The government finally agreed that yes, I am fucking disabled and they should help me. 

That enabled me to go back to school.  I got through the first half of term one (I can only deal with 3 courses at once, not six, so I am doing half a term at a time) with a 4.0 GPA.  I start the second half of term one on the 4th.

Girlkid got accepted to the equestrian program at the University of Guelph, one of the top schools in North America and one with a world reknown reputation for vetrinary care training.  It is the only school on this continent or in the UK that offers her the science and other types of training that she wants to get her on the career path she dreams of.  

Boykid has the love of his life with him again.  

I am able to do yoga regularly and enjoyed a small remission in some of my symptoms.

The Lows:

Boykid was assaulted in September and he took the assault in order to protect his girlfriend.  Now he’s dealing with PTSD.  

My health has not changed, despite the remission.  I got bonchitis right before Christmas, capping off a flare in symptoms that started in September.  

My maternal grandmother died on Christmas day.  

Four days later… I don’t know that I should talk about this but…Well, I’m sitting here fighting tears so I will talk about it.  Damn those who would keep me silent.

Normally, I wouldn’t bring up something so personal but this is important.  It has lessons that I hope will help others. 

Wolfman has suffered from depression for years, and had some major ups and downs.  This year he had a couple of major blows that I won’t talk about here.  He took some time for himself to try and get it together.  It didn’t seem to help.  

Then I made a catastrophic mistake and he felt like I betrayed him.  Part of it was that I didn’t listen to him enough.  I didn’t close my mouth and stop telling him what he should do enough.  I didn’t stop trying to impose my will on his depression.  I can see that now.

I love him, I have forever and I will forever.  I only want to see him better and happy.  

It’s not my job to do anything but listen to him.  I should have shut up.  I know that what he did is on him but I can’t help but shoulder some of the blame.  

On the 29th (Girlkid’s 17th birthday), Wolfman made a very good attempt at suicide.  He was found by his family and his sister told me what happened.  She promised me that she’d tell me if he didn’t make it.  She blames me, blames all of us connected to him, but told me I deserve to know.

I went to bed, exhausted by my tears and fear, and was terrified to check my messages in the morning.   Since there was nothing, I’m assuming he still lives.  And I’m assuming he’s getting the help he needs.

And part of that is me separating myself from him and giving him time. If he’s ever ready to talk to me again, I’ll be here.  Still loving him.  

The reason I wanted to talk to you about this, on the final day of 2016, is this:

If you know someone suffering from mental illness then shut up and listen.  Close your mouth and open your ears.  Support, don’t dictate.  Help however they need you to; if that means listening, listen.  If that means sitting there with them silently, do that.  If it means helping them remember to take their medications or make their appointments (and they’ve asked for help), do it.

But for Gods’ sake, stop telling them what you think is best.  Step in if there’s a danger but mostly, your job is to support, listen, love.  That’s it.  

I pray that 2017 gives him time to heal and helps him find some peace, even if it’s without me.

And I pray that 2017 is a much better year for everyone.  I pray for those who lost loved ones.  

For me, changes are coming.  A move.  More school.  A shift in how I treat myself.  I have plans.  Dreams.  Goals.  And I will follow them through.  

I am posting this unedited.  I can’t bear to read what he did again.  My pain is for him, for me, for his daughters.  It’s about loss, fear, the thought of what was almost permanently gone.  I am heartbroken but there is a kernel of hope because Wolfman is one of the strongest people I know.  If he comes back to me, I will welcome him with open arms and beg forgiveness.  If he doesn’t, well, that’s what’s best for him.  

Much love and light to you and yours, dear readers.  Have a wonderful new year.

And Henry… If you’re reading this, I’ve need of you.  You know how to find me.

A Glimpse

Welcome to the world of 19th century building remodels.  This building was built around 1895, I think.  There’s a shop downstairs and three apartments above.  My landlord doesn’t appear to care too much about it.  

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Super steep stairs no one cares about.  

 

These are how I, owner of body with a degenerating SI joint and DDD in the lower back, (AND FMS), get in and out of my home. 

They’re a challenge and I’m always up for a challenge. 

Right?  

*laughs*

And speaking of challenges, I mentioned before I am working on a brand new kind of project for me: a video blog!  

This  vlog will be me talking about living with chronic pain, as I’ve said.  It is NOT about the effects, because we know and… I’m repeating myself.  I want to help people build lives worth living and I want them to understand that they are not alone with their pain.  

I will be talking about: 

  • Acceptance.  This is forgiving; being at peace with who and what you are, what you’ve been given; and it means that you understand right here, right now, that your body is flawed, NOT YOU.  
  • A technique called Turning the Mind.  This is a technique I learned in DBT that was pivotal in helping me learn to deal with my pain.  And it was something I seemed to know instinctively.  And I will talk about DBT. 
  • Goals, dreams & a Life Worth Living.  I capitalize Life Worth Living because I think it’s extremely important.  People with chronic pain forget how to live.
  • Chronic pain.  What it is; chronic vs acute.  I will touch on the effects on sleep, family and the mind and emotional state of the one its afflicted.
  • MCS, FMS, Osteoarthritis, Nerve Damage, Degenerating Disc Disease  
  • I will talk about whatever my viewers want or need me to talk about.

The first video will be an introduction to me and why I’m an authority on these subjects.  Why I have the audacity to think I can help people.  

I want that first blog to go out on June 1st.  That’s six weeks from now.  I am working my butt off at understanding YouTube and doing the research for the first few blogs.  I can’t promise quality, given my *cough* equipment but hey, I consider the content more important than any high tech options.  

So far, I’ve had everyone I talk to about it say something along the lines of “I’d love to see that” and that gives me impetus and motivation.  

And now, I am going to give my brain a rest with daydreams and fiction.

Muah.  

Camp Day 13

Good afternoon!  

This month is very difficult for writing for me but I’m a little bit ahead of schedule.  The stats on campnanowrimo.org say I have to write 1458 words a day to hit 50k on the 30th.  

Technically, that’s ahead (it takes 1667 from day 1 to day 30) but to me it’s behind.  I like 2k a day so I should be at 26k, not at almost 24.  

Oh well.  I have to work with the way I feel.  

I am trying to push through though because of the project I am working on.  In order to complete the weekly pieces on schedule, I will have to work regardless of how I feel quite often.  

James is 2480 words so I will get to letting you read.  I am going to scrub off the heebie jeebies. 

Enjoy!  

Muah!

Japanese Game of Justice

The sign almost said JAMES JOSEPHSON.  It said JAMS JOSFSON and the Japanese man holding it was smiling large and nodding hopefully at every well-built male he saw.

James, the guy in question, ambled through the arrival gate and started looking for his ride.  He found the sign and approached the driver.  “Konichiwa!” James said cheerfully.  He was quite happy to be a contestant on this game show that Japan was for.  The prize was ¥500 million, which was about $4.3 million US dollars, and it was totally tax free.

The man with the sign looked James up and down and stifled a sigh.  This man was not what he expected, but then, he had not been told what to expect, just that he was to pick up a contestant for the show.  He had done this before and the contestants had always looked like athletes.  This one looked like he ate too many American cheeseburgers and sat around on his ass. “This way,” he said in heavily accented English and a barely there bow.  He left James to bring his own bag.

Adjusting his grip a little bit with a barely muffled derogatory comment on the service, James followed the man out to the parking lot. He hoped there was a limo to take him to the studio.  The car was tiny, a boxy little Japanese wagon, and James barely managed to squeeze his 6’2” self into the back seat.  He finds a tray with a selection of bottled drinks and packaged snacks on the seat next to his.

“Eat, eat!” His driver says.

James woke up some time later, naked and shivering, and crammed into a cage.  All around him were other cages, all containing other people, equally naked, cold and pissed off.  Each cage was about twenty inches square, they were bolted to the floor, and there was no space between them.  There were rows and rows of cages.  He estimated that there were ten cages in his row and ten rows in the …cave? “What…what are we doing here?”  James spoke through chattering teeth.  “I thought…”

“Yeah, we all thought.” A man closest to him on the left sneered at him.  “What did you do to earn this?”

“What do you mean?” James asked with confusion.

“I mean that all of us are crooks, cons and, like in her case,” he pointed, “killers.  What is your dark, dirty secret?”

James shrank back against the bars of his cage.  “I…I… I don’t know what you mean.  I play contests, that’s all.  I win a lot but I’ve never hurt anyone.”

“I play contests, that’s all,” someone else mocked.

“Bullshit. You’ve done something.”  The woman to his right came close and pressed her face between the bars.  It mangled her features and she glared at him with her eyes bugging out and her mouth stretched over her teeth.  “I know a killer when I see one, asshole, and you are a killer.”

“I am not!” He nicknamed her Jane, because he was lacking in imagination.

She reached across the space between them and jabbed him with her finger.  “You are!  I can see it in you.  What a clever little psychopath you are.  Hiding, hiding behind your games, cheating whenever you can.  Lying little asshole.”

“You don’t know anything about me!” he cried.

The first speaker stabbed him in the back with his finger.  “Lying bastard! You wouldn’t be here if you hadn’t hurt someone somewhere.”

“Ouch!” James jumped away.  He decided to call that guy Stabby Joe.  “How do you know that?  What do you know?”

“There’s a Jap over there that speaks English.  He heard them talking.  We are the scum of the earth, our captors think, and they were hired to punish each of us.  If we make it to the end, we earn our freedom.”

James’s eyes hardened and he snarled.  “Then I guess I’ll have to kill you all, just like that little half Jap bitch Tahlia in high school.”

Jane crowed gleefully.  “Oh-ho!  I knew it!  I knew you were a killer!”  Freezing water suddenly pelted them from sprinklers above them and they all screamed in shock.  She turned her face up to it and closed her eyes.  “Drink, asshole.  It’s the only water you’ll get today.”

James reluctantly did as she told him to and tipped his head back.  The water wet his dry throat and he gulped it down. The water shut off before his thirst was slaked.  He smacked his lips then noticed his mouth was a little slimy and there was an acrid taste left behind.  “What the hell?”

“Oh, just wait, newbie.  It gets better.”  Someone shouted.

A few minutes later, his gut cramped.  Hard.  He doubled over, as best he could in his small box, and wrapped his arms around his middle. He swore loudly as the cramping turned into convulsions in the lower intestines.  “No, no, no” he moaned.

His neighbours laughed between their own convulsions.  It wasn’t their first time and wouldn’t be as intense as what James is about to go through.  He cursed them as he tried not to shit himself.  The convulsions worsened and he squatted.

The moans and groans of pain echoed in the room, warring with the drips landing in the puddles.  James tried and tried but he couldn’t help it and his bowels evacuated themselves brutally, in a messy, chunky stream of liquid.

“Ha, ha!” crowed Stabby Joe gleefully, even as his own bowels let go.  “Serves you right.”

Suddenly the lights went out and came back on.  A hush settled over the prisoners.

“What’s going on?” James whispered.

“Shut up!” Jane hissed.

Someone screamed at them in Japanese and the few people who understood it stuck their arms between the bars, cramming them both through the same space.  Others followed suit and two men pushed a trolley between the rows.  The trolley held a large pile of steel manacles.  He cuffed each prisoner.

James struggled and the man grabbed his thumb.  He bent the thumb back toward James’s elbow and James screamed as he was driven to his knees.  The manacles were snapped around his wrist.  The next three people to James’s left were given the same treatment.  Every time someone fought the restraints the following three people were hurt as well.

When the man was done, several others lined up at both ends of each row of cages.  Each person was sexless and faceless behind heavily padded black leather jackets and pants, leather gloves and black motorcycle helmets with deeply tinted face masks.   They carried cattle prods.  James shuddered as he stared at them.  One turned to face him and the dim overhead lights reflected in their face mask, giving the impression of eyes.

There was more screaming of incomprehensible words and a loud buzzing echoed through the cave.  The doors of the cages swung open and the prisoners surged forward.  Most of them took a second to stretch, revelling the small freedom.  They were yelled at again and the doors began to sing closed.  Everyone moved out of the way then, once the doors were closed, they were prodded out one end of the row, one row at a time.  They were led and followed by the faceless people.  There were others watching over the groups and they made their role clear as the group emerged into the bright, blinding light of day.

As sunlight pierced James’s pupils someone made a run for it.  There was the sound of a shotgun being racked and then the boom of the firing.  A thud of the body landing on the ground was followed by silence.  James decided to let these events play out.

They were herded to a field, guided by a few zaps of the cattle prods and then several prisoners were shoved to their knees on the damp ground until the others got the hint and knelt on their own.  Tents lined one side of the field and a large wall of fabric stretched across the end the prisoners faced. Solid, wood, scaffold-like towers stood at each corner with armed gunmen standing in each.  Bleachers lined the side opposite the tents and the final edge of the field held

Several small, very old women scrambled among the prisoners, shoving small wooden bowls of soupy rice at each person.  James stared at the contents of his bowl, trying to figure out the contents.  Chunks of white, fibrous vegetable and a brown stringy meat.  “I’m not eating this,” he said, setting his bowl on the ground.

“Suit yourself,” Jane said as she reached for the bowl.  Stabby Joe beat her to it and she screamed wordlessly at him and launched herself at him.  Gunshots boomed again and those with cattle prods rushed in.  Jane subsided, returning to her own seat with her hands over her head and her eyes lowered to the ground.  “Okay.  Okay.  I’m sorry.  I’m good.”

They halted, the cattle prods less than an inch from her skin for a long moment then pulled back and marched out of the crowd.  Jane sagged with relief then glared at Stabby Joe.  “I will get you.”

“Not if I get you first, skank.  And when I do, I’ll make sure your last act in this world is to get choked out while I fuck you.”  He grabbed his genitals and shook them in her direction with an over-the-top moan of pleasure.

She flipped him the bird while James looked at her appraisingly.  Yeah.  He could do that.

A moment later, two men got up on one of the towers by the long stretch of fabric.  They both had megaphones.  One spoke in Japanese and the other followed in English.  “You have ten tasks to complete to get to the castle.  If you survive the castle, you will earn your freedom!”

More Japanese then more English.  “This is a fight to the death!  You are all criminals.  All have one goal: survival with a clean slate.   If you win, you can go anywhere in the world and begin a new life.”

“What about the money?” James wondered aloud.

“Money?” Stabby Joe laughed.  “You thought that was real?”

James was crushed.

“On your feet!” the English speaker screamed at them.

The prisoners surged to their feet and pressed forward.  As they were jostled and crowded, Stabby Joe spoke hurriedly to James and Jane.  “If we work together, we can get to the castle.  From there, it’ll be each to his own.  Deal?”

“Deal!” James and Jane said together seconds before a horn sounded.  The four rows in front of them started running while the five behind them forced them forward.

James ran for it, swearing because his hands were still manacled together.  The three of them ran, stumbled, slipped through the mud.  There were already dead and dying bodies littering the ground.

They fought their way through the ten challenges, killing more than two dozen people between them.  Injured, they finally stood in the castle courtyard.  James had a broken rib that shifted every time he took a deep breath.  One wrist was sprained, two fingers were broken and he had several deep bruises forming, including the one that covered half his face and forced his eye half shut.  He thought he probably had a crack in his cheekbone.

Jane grinned savagely at him.  “We did it!”

“Yes, we did.”  James grinned back.

“And now, you’re on your own.  And your ass is mine, slut.”  Stabby Joe leered at Jane.

“I’ll rip your dick off with my cunt,” Jane snarled at him.

Guards with semi-automatic rifles stood in a circle around them to protect the medics who went through patching them up, though only just enough to stabilize broken fingers and stop the bleeding one all three of them.  They were given water and food.  And through this, all around them, people cheered and shouted at them.  TV cameras caught every expression and high powered microphones heard every word.  Viewers present and around the world placed bets on the winner.

“There are three more tasks inside the castle!” The words came over the loudspeaker.  “Only one can survive!”  The audience screamed in delight and encouragement.

James thought castle was too grand a word for the big boxy building.  It was two storeys, stacked like a cake that had one layer smaller than the other.  There were barred windows cut into the cement block walls and no other doors.  More guards paced the walkway on top of the first storey.  Three jumbo screens on the top of the building showed their faces to the people in the stands.

James, Jane and Stabby Joe were dragged forward and positioned in front of the three entrances at the base of the castle.  The voice over the loudspeaker counted down from ten with the help of the screaming crowd and the three contestants were shoved into the rooms.  The doors dropped down behind them with a bang.

James immediately turned around and felt all over the door, looking for a way to open it.  There was nothing. He couldn’t hear the outside anymore either; he couldn’t hear anything at all.

With sliding steps and his hands straight out in front of his face, he started forward.  Three steps in something skittered over his foot.  James shuddered and stifled a scream.  “A bug,” he muttered.  “That’s all.  It can’t hurt me.”  He repeated the mantra, willing himself to not panic.  He took two more steps and heard a whisper of sound.  It sounded like a screen being pulled to one side.  James strained to hear anything, anything at all.

A moment later, he heard it.

In the dead silence of the room, it sounded like whispers or silk sliding on silk.  For a moment he entertained romantic notions of a sexy, scantily clad woman, waiting to touch him.  Then reality hit him.

Or, rather, bit him.

Something sharp stabbed him on the top of the foot.  It felt like a bee sting.

And again on his ankle.

James felt tiny feet clinging to the hairs on his legs, crawling up his body.  A wave of multi-legged creatures swarmed over him.  He tried swiping them off and they clung to his hands.  He felt tiny strands of silk sticking to his fingers and screamed.

The sound seemed to embolden the spiders more and hundreds of them rose up his body in a tidal wave of legs and bites.

He screamed again and they climbed in his open mouth.  They bit him everywhere they touched him.   The pain and venom from the sheer number of bites drove him to his knees and eventually to all fours before he was finally laying on the floor.  The spiders continued to bite without mercy as the audience outside screamed their delight at his death.

April Camp Day 8

Welcome to Hector’s little hell hole, people!

It took me two days two write this and, frankly, The Boyfriend is a little surprised that I managed to write at all today.

I have had a fair number of public appearances in the last couple of days – shopping, therapy, my daughter’s dance competition – and my head is basically full of acid coated cotton batting. I have a major migraine and my thinking is not where it should be.  You don’t want to know how much backspacing and cussing this is taking.  *chuckles ruefully*

Thank you, MCS.  

Speaking of my daughter’s dance competition:  I am so proud of GirlKid!  She won first overall in her age group and category for her solo!  She did amazingly well for her dances. Tomorrow morning is the third and final for the weekend.

MCS is not easily defined but here goes:  Chronic multi-system disorder, usually involved the nervous system and at least one other system.  Persons with MCS “react adversely” to chemicals and whatnot in the environment.   Adversely.  That means we lose our ability to think, to communicate, we get violently ill, we get extremely tired.  It’s crap.

Nevertheless, I managed to finish Hector, largely thanks to a conversation with The Boyfriend and Girlkid.  Sometimes talking it out helps the process.  Hector’s eye – her idea.  Actually, I have to give her credit for that whole last bit (which needs written better, perhaps I’ll attempt that tomorrow).  For now, I’m going to be a vegetable.

Enjoy!

Muah!  PS Count to date?  

History Hath More Fury

 

Hector Heirro studied the email and sighed sadly, expressing his opinion of the sender’s intelligence, and replied with exaggerated care.

Mr. Singh,

As I have told you before, I have a Masters in History and Classical Studies.  I also teach.  The 80 Years War was the subject of my thesis and I developed a theory that I would like to prove.

The thought that he could possibly disprove it never crossed his mind.

I wish to study Her Majesty Elizabeth the First’s jewels as I believe one of them holds the key.  I am well aware that the ones in the museum dedicated to her are paste and I have asked for permission to access the actual jewels. 

You have already implied the permission is granted.  My flight will land at Heathrow tomorrow morning at 9:38 am Greenwich Mean Time and I will arrive at your museum precisely two hours later, allowing for the customs process and traffic.  I have enclosed a picture in a previous email so that you may be sure of my identity but I will be carrying further identification with me. 

I require unlimited and unrestricted access to these jewels.  I assure you, I know how to handle them carefully.  I am paying a great deal of money for this privilege and I expect it to be fulfilled to the letter.

In truth, he was only interested in a single piece.  It is a brooch given to Elizabeth I by the King of Spain, Phillip II.  Rumours have told him that the piece opens like a locket.  She denied accepting it many times and sent it back to him each time.  Each time, he would send it back.  Hector believed that they were exchanging messages.

Elizabeth I was purported to be supported the Spanish Dutch rebels against King Phillip II and yet she was in league with the king.  It would change the world view of history if he could just prove it was true.  It had taken exhaustive research and he hundreds of thousands of his family’s fortune but he didn’t care.  He’d been all over the world, especially Spain and the Netherlands and gathered all kinds of information, suspicions, rumours and secrets.  The one that had kept cropping up is the brooch as a locket.  He pursued it ruthlessly.

Hector walked from through the penthouse apartment and out to the pool enclosure for his last swim for the next few days.  The pool itself is only ten feet long but has a motor that produces a current of varying speeds that allows him to swim in place.    He was fanatical about his health, ate well and swam for about forty-five minutes every day he was at home.  He was rather vainly pleased with his body.  It was, he thought, too bad there was no woman to admire it.

Twenty-four hours later Hector was in a vault deep in the Tower of London, staring at Elizabeth I’s personal collection of jewels.  The real ones.  He almost rubbed his hands together in glee.  Instead, he turned to his companion.  “Thank you, Mr. Singh.  I appreciate all your time.”  His tone was clearly dismissive.

Mr. Singh, who runs the biggest bank in England and carries the responsibility of protecting the royal jewels, was not used to being dismissed like the family butler.  He opened his mouth, closed it then opened it again.  He turned away from the young man and headed out.  At the door, he paused and gave Hector a single finger salute then walked back into the main bank, whistling happily.

Hector waited until he heard the door lock then indulged himself with a gleeful hand rubbing.  “Okay, Hec, let’s get to work.”  There was no real description of the brooch-locket so he began at one end of the table and started picking them up.  He logged each with a description.

“That’s weird.”  He examined the small brooch in his hand.  It was vibrating a little.  The longer he held onto it, the longer he focused in on it.  The world spun around him and he was suddenly standing in the Queen’s Privy Chamber with half dressed women screaming in fear and outrage all around him.

Hector dropped the brooch and he was suddenly standing back in the vault. He stumbled back against the table and rubbed his eyes.  “What the hell was that?”  He looked all around the floor for the brooch but couldn’t find it.  He gave up after a long, fruitless search.  There was absolutely nowhere for it to hide so he got up and resolved to get back to work.

There, in its original spot on the table, was the brooch.  “What the hell?”  Hector snatched it up to examine it.  Immediately, it started vibrating again and he quickly dropped it on the table.  He rubbed his hand on his thigh and stared at it once again.

“You know, Hec, I don’t think that’s the brooch after all.  Time to move on.” He made a couple of notes, (like don’t ever touch that again!), and moved on to the next in the line.

It was too small, he thought, but he looked anyway.  It had gems in varying shades of red all over it and a small silver axe.  He couldn’t figure out what it was for.  Hector closed his fingers around it and paced as he tried to figure it out.  The brooch vibrated and he found himself facing Elizabeth I and her favourite torturer.  The former looked at him with surprise while the latter dropped the small hammer he had been using to pulverize the small hand bones in the person they were questioning.  The woman in the chair screamed in fear as soon as Hector appeared.  Hector embarrassed himself by screaming in response.

The queen gave a command Hector dropped the brooch and the world spun crazily around him.  He found himself on his hands and knees staring at the vault floor, the brooch nowhere in sight.  He pushed himself to his feet and looked at the table.  There it was, gleaming dully in the vault’s soft lighting, back in its spot.

Hector pushed shaking hands through his hair.  “What is going on? Where am I going?”  He was part frightened, part intrigued.  “This could be a great way to study history!  But what if I get stuck?  Or injured?”  He shuddered.  He was suddenly more afraid than intrigued and involuntarily took a step back.  Then another.  He was almost at the door when he caught himself.

“No!  I’ve worked too hard to find this proof to give up now.”  He marched back to the table and looked over the brooches before selecting one at random.

It was pretty, almost the size of his palm and, to him, looked like it could open.  It had an angel on the front that was set upon a shield with crossed swords.  Perhaps it was given to her as a symbol of God’s protection, he mused.  He was so intent in trying to find a miniscule hinge that he never noticed the vibration begin.

It wasn’t until he smelled the sweat of hot, overdressed horses and the acrid scent of gunpowder smoke that he even thought to look up, so involved was he.  He slowly moved his eyes from the brooch to the muddy ground.  His eyes traveled slowly to the left until they came to the silver and gold plated armour on a horse’s leg.  Up, up, up he looked.

Straight into the face of Queen Elizabeth I.

“You!” she cried.  Her horse danced in place with her agitation.  “Bring him to me!” she said imperiously.

Hector stumbled back, his hand reflexively tightening around the brooch.  Arms grabbed him from behind and dragged him forward.  “No!”  He struggled.

She pulled her sword and pointed it at him, resting the tip under his chin and raised his face to hers.  “Who are you?”  He shook his head, scraping the underside of his chin against the back of the blade.  She pushed his head back further.  “Who.  Are. You?” she asked again.

When he still refused to answer, his eyes wide with fear, she moved the blade to his shoulder and pushed it into him.  Slowly.  He screamed in pain, until a stinky, gloved hand covered the lower half of his face.  Elizabeth stopped pushing the blade in and asked again.  “What is your name?”

He had tears flowing down his cheeks and he was slowly being smothered by the leather glove but still he shook his head.  She twisted the blade and he remembered to let go of the brooch.  Instantly, he was back in the vault.  He stumbled back and hit the table.  It tipped over as he fell, raining the bits of metal and precious stones on him.

Instantly, each brooch began to vibrate.  Pieces of him were transported away to another time.  A hand went there, a piece of torso here.  A large, fancy brooch landed on his face, right over his eye.  His eye went to Elizabeth I’s court, in the middle of a party.  The last thing he saw was a man’s leather pump lowering down on top of him.

Mr. Singh found him some time later, the body mangled, the table upright with the brooches in place, gleaming smartly.

The First Day

blessing

A blessing for the new year. (web find)

 

This is the time of the year when everyone starts reflecting on all the things they need to change in order to live well. I am guilty of it but I am trying to change it for I think that we should be looking at our lives regularly through the year and changing our negative behaviours to the positive.  

I also think, though, that everyone needs a starting point and ‘Happy new year!’ tends to be that point.  Why not February 1st or July 1st or October?   

So this January I’m not making resolutions or promises, I’m making changes.  

I will tell you about them but first, I want to look at the positives of 2015.  

I had ample opportunity to be proud of my children.  My son is working hard at achieving his goals, he stands strong by his girlfriend and he is there for his family.  My daughter is making strides in handling her own anger issues and she works hard to maintain her position on the honour roll at school.  

I began therapy and have made progress in changing how I react to things.  The current bruises on my hand would seem to belie that but it is true nevertheless.  The bruises are a result of not taking care of myself well enough throughout December.

I put Lizendale up for sale on Kindle and Amazon.  (HW2 is a week or so away from publication too, by the way.  And when it’s up, both HW1 and Lizendale will be given away for free in the Kindle store.)

My relationship with Wolfman has improved a great deal.

My relationship with The Boyfriend is still going strong.

I went into remission for a few weeks.  Man oh man, was that ever great!

The flare I went into following the remission wasn’t as bad as previous ones.  That means I’m getting stronger.

I had a lot of love, a lot of laughs and a lot of Light in my life. 

Sounds like a great year, doesn’t it?  It was.

It wasn’t without difficulty though.  There are changes I need to make in my thinking, my perspective and the way I treat my body.

Less junk food.  More veggies.  Start at the beginning with my elliptical and any other exercises I want to add.  That means 3 minutes on the elliptical.  Three leg lifts, three repetitions of each move with the resistance band.  

I need to be more open to seeing how other people really see me; my daughter tells me that people appreciate me more than I know. She says I refuse to see it, or close to that.  

I need to be open to the gifts the Universe will send my way and I need to use them wisely.  

I need to be in touch with my spirituality more often, more deeply.  It is a big part of who I am and it’s time I put the work into it that it deserves.

I need to forgive myself my errors and have more patience, mostly with myself but with others as well.

Now, how do we get past the mistakes of last year? It’s as (seemingly) simple as forgiving ourselves for them and letting go.

So easy to type, so potentially difficult to do.

For me, I require symbolism.  A way to… let those mistakes go up in smoke.  For this New Year Day I will be doing the following ritual:

I will clean my house from top to bottom, washing away the dirt and negativity of 2015.  Then I will burn a little piece of paper on which I have written a few things (which I will tell you in a bit).  A tarot reading and a shower.  The shower will be about washing away all the negativity that clings to me.  

Written on the piece of paper I have cut into a 4×4″ square are the following things:

Side 1: I forgive myself the transgressions of 2015.

I let go of the mistakes I made, the things I didn’t get done.

I celebrate the accomplishments, the joys and all that is positive and let go of the negative.  Good bye, 2015.

Side 2:  I open myself to the possibilities, to the gifts that will come my way.

I open my eyes, mind and heart to the Universe and all the Gods choose to bestow upon me.  

I am worthy to receive them.

~

To me, it is the physical demonstration that I need.  Between the Fibro and the MCS I lose a lot in my brain.  Writing it down, making it something permanent in my memory will help me remember.

That’s what I am doing today, folks, what about you?  What is your favourite way to start the year?  What is the most meaningful?

I wish you every joy, every blessing and all the Light and love you can handle, and then some, in 2016.  I wish you the open mind and heart to receive these gifts.  

Happy New Year.

Muah.

It’s That Time of Year…

…when good feelings abound.

…when family gets together.

…when food is made in abundance.

…when gaily wrapped boxes and funky or cute bags full of goodies appear.

…when depression becomes it’s strongest.

…when the poor feel their empty wallets more keenly.

…when people acquire debt they can ill afford. 

Yule

Yule.  A Google find.

To me, the Yule season is about family.  It’s about showing the love you have for the people in your life.  It’s about gratitude come to life; gratitude that is shown in the hugs, the kisses, the food and warm drinks shared.  

It’s about showing the Gods, (whatever you call them – God, Yahweh, Allah, Isis, the Oak King), your gratitude for your life.  Regardless of your beliefs, this time of year shines with family and love. 

It’s about remembering why we’re here and why we do what we do.  

I have spent some time reflecting on my own family, my obligations, my needs and my hopes and dreams.  There are some things I’d like to change, others I’d like to give sharper focus to.  

Next week, we’ll talk about changes for 2016 and plans for the future.  

This weekend, I’m going to take some pictures with the new GorillaPod Action Tripod my daughter got me!  This is the only time I wish the water was on the east side of me, so I could take night pictures of the full moon on the lake.  It’s the first one on Christmas in 38 years and there won’t be another until 2034.  It’s worth spending some time looking at it, I think.  

But then, I love the moon. 😉

I hope that your holidays see you blessed with love and light, regardless of where you are or your financial station or your health.  Remember, take some time to ease the stress in your belly.  Breathe, enjoy having your family around you.

Muah

Fiction Friday Week 31

Good Friday morning!

How’s it going? I’ve had a quiet, relatively good week.  I’ve gotten things done, despite being sick.  I’ve gotten on the elliptical and done my yoga four days out of five this week.  

Monday was a day of rest, a total donada day.  I’d spent the weekend helping The Boyfriend clean the cottage.  We moved everything out that was unnecessary to us, (and really stinky); he vacuumed and washed the walls and floors.  I packed up the dishes and cutlery we’ll never use – which means I packed up about 90% of them.  The landlady hoards dishes, I swear it.  It makes sense, given that it’s a rental in the summer and sleeps 7 or 8, but man oh man, there are a LOT of dishes.  *laughs*

I scrubbed the cupboards inside and out, the counter tops, and washed the dishes that were left – 6 of everything, because that’s all we need.  

And I did all that work while getting sick.  So it was understandable that I made the decision to do squat on Monday.  It was quite the debate with myself but I managed to choose to look after me.  And then The Boyfriend backed it up with the donada order.  

(For those of late to my blog unfamiliar with the ‘donada’ thing, I’ll explain.  I have several chronic illnesses – fibromyalgia and multiple chemical sensitivities just to name two – that sometimes overwhelm me and on those days I am to do nothing, nada, zilch, zero.  It usually came across as an order, just like that.  It got shortened to ‘do nada today’ then to ‘a donada day’.)

This week I have been working on Carlos, Ted’s best friend.  It’s taken some doing because I’m not familiar with the Mexican culture and Carlos is my “Mexican super assassin dwarf with an eye patch”, as per Wolfman’s stipulation.

It took some doing.  The Secretaria de la Defensa Nacional is not exactly a font of information.  I finally decided to wing it since I’m not actually having him perform any operations.  So, Carlos is in black ops so deep they don’t have an official name.  They are known in some circles as los lobos locos.  There are reasons why but they’re not important.

Since I have stuff to do – chores and whatnot – I shall leave you here.  

Say hello to my little friend!  Oh, wait, Tony was Cuban, not Hispanic. 😉

Have a fabulous Friday!  

Muah!

 

Carlos Montalban

 

Age: 42

Nationality:  Mexican, born and bred

Occupation:  Government assassin, working for a deep, dark part of SEDENA (Secretaria de la Defense Nacional) military intelligence. 

Appearance:  Carlos has Achondroplasia, a form of dwarfism that means he is nearly perfectly formed, but smaller than the average human height.  At 4’4” he is the smallest military man anywhere on the planet.  He has a large head typical of the gene disorder, shorted forearms and upper thighs.  He is slightly bow-legged.  Carlos is an attractive man with chocolate brown eyes, black hair and a medium tan colour to his skin.  Strong jaw, thick eyebrows and lips that are almost too thin.  He has no discernable marks save for a tattoo of a wolf’s head, done in the swirling light and shadow of the Mexican tribal style.

He wears an eyepatch to hide the bionic eye he was fitted with at the age of 23; most often the patch is a match for the colour of his skin.  He is fit, dresses most often like an American cowboy, goes unnoticed by the world at large, unless he wishes to be seen. 

 

 

Carlos ended up in the military because he kept getting caught with guns as a child.  And if he wasn’t getting caught shooting stuff up, he was found getting into locked buildings and stealing stuff.  He could get in without a problem – never tripped an alarm, never made a sound.  However, he had problems getting back out sometimes. 

He was an orphan, living on the streets, abandoned at the age of 8 when his parents tired of dealing with the special issues raising a dwarf caused. 

When he was caught trying to leave a building he’d broken into for the fifteenth time by the time he was 12, the judge decided Carlos needed a more focused education.  He let him stew in a holding cell – one the judge had emptied so that Carlos would be in no real danger.  However, Carlos could be seen by, and hear, inmates in other cells.  The night was terrifying, even for a boy with such bravado and ego as Carlos.  He was taken down a few pegs that night and reduced to a scared little boy.

The following morning, the judge had Carlos called to his chambers.  The boy was fed, cleaned and dressed and brought into the room.  He ran to the judge’s desk, eyes filled with tears, and begged the judge never to send him back.   “Please, please!  I will never do anything wrong again.”

The judge watched him for a long moment then looked to the man standing in the shadows.  “What do you think?  Will he do?”

Carlos screamed in surprise and whirled around.  He scrambled around the edge of the desk away from the other man.

“Aside from the fact that he didn’t notice me, yes, he’ll do.  I think he’ll work out very nicely; his instincts can be honed, refined.”  The man crouched down and crooked a finger.  “Come here, Carlos.”

After looking at the judge and getting a brief nod, Carlos approached the man.  He stopped just out of reach, making the man smile.  “What do you want of me, Mister?  I refuse to have sex with you.  You can’t make me.”  Carlos crossed his arms across his chest and glowered.

The man stifled a laugh and gave the boy a very thoughtful look.  “Has someone tried?”  He frowned when the boy nodded.  “What did you do?”

“I took the man’s knife and stabbed him in the leg.”

“It takes a lot of bravery and strength to be able to stick someone with a knife, even to save your own skin.  How did it make you feel?”

Carlos shifted from foot to foot and stared at the silver and turquoise clasp of the man’s bolo tie.  “I was scared.  But I was determined to get away.  I felt sick when the knife went into him. I knew that he would kill me if he got his hands on me so I pushed the knife all the way in.  I ran away as soon as the knife stopped moving.”  He met the man’s eyes.  “I never looked back and I would do it again.” His voice was fierce.

The man nodded.  “Good.”  He held out his hand.  “My name is Francisco Montalban.  I would like to give you a home.  My friend here,” he gestures at the judge, “says that you have no last name.  No family.   How would you like to have my name, be a part of my family?  You’d have a bed, food, clothes, an education.”

Carlos’s eyes lit up but he gave Francisco a suspicious look.  “What do I have to do in return?”

“You have to stay within the letter of the law.  Study.  Train.  I will turn you into the world’s greatest spy, if you let me.”   When Carlos grinned broadly at the thought Francisco patted him gently, carefully, on the shoulder then stood.  “My wife is waiting outside, Carlos, she would very much like to meet you.  Her name is Carlita.  I will sign some papers my friend, Juan, has and we will become a family.”

“Can I see the papers when you are done?”

Francisco smiled, pleased.  “Absolutely.  We will not call it final until you approve them, alright?”

“Yes Sir,” Carlos said.  He ran for the door.  As he opened it he turned.  “Thank you both, very much.”

Francisco, as Carlos learned later, waited until the boy had left the room before pulling papers out of the inner pocket of his jacket.  “His parents were found.  They were persuaded to give up their rights to the boy.”

“How much did it cost you?” Juan asked.

“Only about three thousand pesos.”  He dropped the papers on the desk.  “They were wise in taking the money.”

“Indeed.”  Juan pointed to all the signature spots in the adoption papers then made copies of them.  He handed Francisco the originals.  “Good luck.”

Francisco smiled before he opened the door.  “I do not need luck, my friend.  I now have wolf cub in my corner.”

From that moment on, Carlos was devoted to Francisco and Carlita.  He was equally grateful for his new home and terrified he’d do something to lose it, or that they would throw him out as his birth parents did. 

Francisco did indeed train him.  He taught Carlos how to trust his instincts, how to improve those instincts.  He taught Carlos weapons, technology and people.  Carlos went to post-secondary school in the U.S. and earned a doctorate in neurobiology – the study of the anatomy, physiology and diseases of the brain and nervous system.

When he was 18 and conscripted into the army, Francisco’s influences put Carlos in the infantry and, eventually, officer’s school.  Carlos’s proficiency with weapons earned him a spot as a sniper.  SEDENA, Mexico’s central intelligence agency, and the place Francisco worked, recruited Carlos. 

Finally, Francisco had Carlos where he wanted him all along.  Carlos was put into the deep black ops program.  It was so deep that it didn’t have a name.  It had a motto:

              Somos los lobos en su puerta en la oscuridad de la luna.

We are the wolf at your door in the dark of the moon.

SEDENA is much like the CIA. And, like the CIA, they do their part in controlling world military endeavours and politics. 

Carlos met Ted when he and Ted were chasing the same pair of drug lords.  One cartel was Mexican and the other American.  The cartel heads had teamed up to expand their businesses in each country.  They’d gotten big, too big, and it was upsetting the balance of drugs and peace in both countries.  Ted was sent to hunt the two men leading these cartels and bring them to justice.  Carlos was sent to kill them.

In the end, after a long hunt and huge battle that killed dozens, Ted and Carlos killed the men.  That the second-in-commands were killed too was a coincidence. 

The SOG man and the black wolf became fast friends.

 

 

Fiction Friday Week 30

G’day, eh!

It is Friday!  Today is a day of recovery for me – yesterday was group therapy, individual therapy AND shots.  I’m totaly whipped.  This is the weekend we get the cottage back so we will be busy.  Moving, cleaning and more cleaning.  We gotta scrub that baby from ceiling to floorboards.  We need to rid The Boyfriend’s home of all the scents of summer visitors and cleaning service chemicals.  

We need to move all the knick knacks out, put the safest furniture in place and take out everything we don’t need.   There are only two of us, we don’t need 15 dishes, 40 spoons and 65 cups.  

Okay, exaggeration.  But the point stands.  We have a lot of work ahead of us this weekend.

Speaking of work – and passion, because writing is a passion for me – I have here a bit of character development for NaNo 2015.  

Ted decided he wanted an interview.  And, of course, he started the interview in the middle. This interview is done from the perspective of an interviewer who knows a little about her subject.  She knows that Ted stopped [whatever the conflict is] and she wants to write a book about him.  Ted is quite the guy. Take a look:

This is my interview with Theodore “Ted” Terwilliger.  He is an intriguing man.  I was so taken with him that I forgot to turn my recorder on until part way through the interview.  I will, therefore, back track some later in the interview. 

 

What were you in a former life?

Plainly put: I was a bounty hunter for the US Government.

What does that mean?

I was a US Marshal who hunted criminals that the local types can’t find, or don’t have the jurisdiction to hunt.  Sometimes I worked in tandem with them.

Oh I see.  And now you own a ranch here in Ontario?  Where did you used to live?

[He arches a brow, looks almost defensive but not quite] Yeah, I relocated.  So what?  My wife, Cilla, and my son, Paulie, had a home in Portland, Tennessee.

Where are they now?

[His face closes up.  His whole body stiffens.]  Dead.

I’m so sorry.  What happened?

I don’t want to discuss it.

Please.  I need to know to write about you accurately.

[His face fills with fury, vein throbbing at the temple] Someone blew up my house.

Do you know who?

Not yet, but when I do… [The vibe coming from him makes me shiver.]

If you’re still looking, why are you in Ontario?

It’s for the best.

[I decide to leave this alone for the moment]  Okay, Ted.  What else can you tell me?

That scar on my ass?   That was from when I was about ten.  My brother and I –

[I interrupt.  Totally unprofessional, I know, but I was surprised.  Nothing in the minimal info I have about him mentions a sibling.]  I didn’t know you had a brother.

[The look he gives me is… well, reprimanding.] “Had” is the operative word.

Um… okay.  I’m sorry.

My brother and I went to an estate auction with our parents.  Momma went inside to look at jewelry and dishes and whatnot. Sam and I went with Daddy to look at the farm equipment.  [He holds up a hand to forestall my question.]  Yes, I was raised on a ranch.  Sam and I were goofing off, as boys do.  He shoved me and I stumbled, straight back onto an old combine header, the kind with the spikes. 

The skinny, sharp spikes.

Someone caught me but not before one of them damned spikes tried to lift my left cheek off my body.

End of auction for the family. 

Beginning of months of chore lists as long as our legs. 

Forty stitches in my ass, by the way.

Wow!  I bet that hurt.

[A wry smile]  The chores or the wound?

Both.

Ye-up.

Tell me about Sam.

[The sadness in his eyes makes me want to hug him.]  Sam was my twin.  He died when we were seventeen.  By then we’d begun hanging out with different crowds.  We were never far from each other but… different tastes in everything.  I was a 4-H member of long standing and Sam was a hair band aficionado.  He drank and experimented with drugs.  I rocked with country music and a good girl who liked to dance in my truck bed. 

I was with her the night Sam and his friend decided to steal the friend’s dad’s truck.  They robbed a pharmacy…

Security guard was shooting at them as they were fleeing.  He hit Sam in the back and the bullet’s path ended in Sam’s heart.  [His eyes get distant, unfocused.]  The guard shot himself in the head while he was awaiting trial.  He couldn’t live with killing a kid.

Is that why you went into law enforcement?

No.  I went wild that year.  Skipped school.  Started smoking.  Ignored my duties to my parents.  Dad just about disowned me.  I tried the drugs my brother took.  Boosted cars, lookin’ for the thrill.  One car belonged to the local mob boss.

He turned you in?

No.  He offered me a job.  But he said I had to go to school, he couldn’t have a drug addled, ignorant schlub finding information for him.  He paid half my college tuition, called it a scholarship to my parents.  He and I discovered that I loved justice but not the law.  He said I could only change it from the inside and sent me to college, pre-law.  I went to cop college halfway through when it turned out being a suit didn’t…well, suit me.

What did he have you doing for him?

Finding information.  There was never anything illegal.  Research.  A meal here, sittin’ near a guy whose picture he’d given me.  Chess games in the park with old men and some not so old, though they seemed it.  They talked to each other over my head.  All I had to do was tell him what I’d found and heard.  Sometimes I had to interpret it for him.

What happened to that job?

He fired me when the US Marshals recruited me my first year as a flat foot.

Why did they recruit you?

I was very good at sticking my nose into things.  My first Sarge gave me a cold case file to try and restrain me.  I solved the case AND found the perp.  It was high profile, attracted attention.  I went straight into the Fugitive Operations division.  I didn’t have the degree they wanted so I went to night school while they trained me to hunt assholes who thought they could outrun justice.  Became so intimate with the law I might well have been sleeping with Lady Justice.  I rose through the ranks quickly, became Deputy US Marshall Supervisor in five years.  I moved to the SOG – the USMS special forces. 

Sounds like you were good at your job.  Why’d you leave it?

Because some asshole blew up my goddamn life. 

There is much more to his back story and I’m getting there.  For now, this is a good start.  I know what makes him all dark inside.  I’m working on what makes him light and good.  

I think it has a lot to do with the love he carries – for his parents, his brother, his wife and his son.  No matter how hurt he is by her death, his eyes and mouth still soften when he talks about her.

Next week!  More about them.  Cilla (short for Priscilla) and Paulie.  More about the relationship with his parents.  And introducing his best friend and the woman he calls a friend and shares the occasional night with.

Have a great Friday everyone!  

Muah!

Fiction Friday Week 24

Good Saturday evening!

Yep, I know.  

Nevertheless, I have good news to report!  I hit 46k this morning.  That means I only have four thousand left to go and three days in which to do it.  Easy peasy.

I got an early birthday present (very early!) and got take advantage of a huge sale at my favourite clothing store.  Got me some pretties.  Love it. 

And now, I share with you chapters nineteen through twenty-three.  In these chapters we have a little bit of excitement and we get to discover just how sick Dennis really is. 

Enjoy!

Muah!

Chapter Nineteen

 

2100, Dennis, timer dead

Before dawn the next morning, Dennis is out skulking about.  He’s driving his car to the ends of roads and dashing up and down the coastline looking for Delilah’s cameras.  He’s intimately familiar with her work and thinks he knows where she might go.  He started in the most likely places and has smashed up three of them by now.  He’s currently along the northwestern side of the island, trying to be careful to stay away from houses.  He hasn’t found any, though he crept quite close to an old stone house, and is on his way back to his car when he catches sight of a narrow path to sea level.  He sweeps his flashlight back and forth and catches a faint metallic glimmer in the sea of sleeping seals.

He starts to scramble down the path, pausing to go slower only when rocks crumble away beneath his feet.  He gets to the bottom and picks his way amongst the beasts to the camera.  He pulls the long iron bar he carried in a loop on his belt and starts smashing the camera to pieces. 

He didn’t count on the seals’ reaction to the violence. 

They woke up with a roar.  Most of them looked at him with annoyance and disdain and waddled down the beach and into the water but some of them headed for him.  He backs away from the camera heading for the trail up and trips over a seal, landing heavily on the mother.  She takes a bite at him and the sharp canines break through the synthetic leather to graze his shoulder as the rest of the pointy teeth leave him bruised almost to the bone and forcing him to drop the iron bar.  She lets go, bellows at him then escorts her baby to the water’s edge. 

The other seals aren’t going to let him off so lightly and they’re headed for him, moving quickly.  Dennis considers turning his back to run faster but can’t quite bring himself too.  The seals are ganging up on him.  He falls on his ass as he finally hits the trail.  He wrenches himself to his feet and scrambles up the path, praying the seals can’t follow him.

Dennis finally reaches the top and pauses there to try and catch his breath.  He stares down at the seals that are now settling down, some going back to sleep, some heading into the sea, and makes a rude gesture at them.  “Fuckers!”  He yells at them then trudges back to his car.  His shoulder ached and he could feel a warm trickle.  He drives back to town one handed.

A little while later, Dennis is having his wounds tended to.  “Ouch, woman!”  Dennis glowers at Catie as she applies a few small stitches to the bite marks.  “Don’t you have any glue?”

“No.  Supplies are limited here,” she says pertly.  “On the rare occasion stitches are needed, we use thread.”

“Perhaps,” Colin adds, “you shouldn’t have riled the seals.  What were you doing there anyway?”

Dennis smoothes his face out and adopts a contrite tone.  “You’re right, I shouldn’t have.  They just looked so peaceful.  I was trying to capture it on film when I slipped on some manure and fell.  One of them objected to me landing on them.”  He tries to sound like he is pleading for understanding and like he regrets doing what he did. 

The reality is that he doesn’t give a damn.  He’s too busy thinking.  The town he’s lodged in can barely be called a town.  It’s a spit of a grocery store that closes its doors before tea and opens at dawn again the next morning; a doctor’s office with hours posted on it that says “Tuesday, 7 am to 7 pm, and Friday, 7 am to 7 pm”; a dingy looking pub and a tiny post office.   Farms stretch out north, west and south.  A dock with a fishing boat tethered to it is at the base of a cliff, just north of the small beach that slopes out from behind the grocery store.

The town beach provided a photo shoot yesterday, though not much of one.  He’s not as much of a fan of Mother Nature’s creatures as Delilah.  He is, however, satisfied he got enough pictures to maybe cover the cost of the trip.  Still… it wasn’t one of the places she’d go.  He thinks he got all her cameras on this island, though that one by the seals almost got by him.  It caught him by surprise.  On reflection, he figures it shouldn’t have. He wonders if there are more he may have missed.

Meanwhile, he hasn’t figured out where she’s staying.  If he can find that, he can destroy her equipment, then maybe she’d be forced to ask him for help and then he can get close to her. 

“You’re done,” Catie says as she applies the last of the tape.  “Try not to get it wet for a few days.  And stay away from the seals!”

“Thanks,” Dennis says absently before heading back to his room.  He decides to get a better look at that stone cottage he saw in the morning, it looks like the kind of place Delilah would choose to stay.  He throws some things in a backpack – a hammer, spray pain, the replacement for his trusty iron bar – and heads out again.  He’s hoping that Delilah is out for the day.

 

 

Chapter Twenty

 

2100, Delilah, 31 years old, 1 year, 20 months, 13 days left on timer

Delilah catches her breath, the familiar thrill of being toe to toe with Mother Nature’s creatures coursing through her.  They are on Calf of Eday and she is surrounded by birds.  Her hair is braided tightly and covered with a hat.  She’d had birds try to take strands of it before.  She is lying on the ground with two cameras in front of her, both on short tripods.  She has her notepad with her. 

The sound of the shutter is silent on the digital camera but the 35mm is giving the occasional mechanical click.  It’s not ruffling feathers though so she’s happy with it.  She is startled when Savannah’s quiet voice intrudes on her musings.

“How did you discover this place?”  Savannah puts a hand on Delilah’s arm.  “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to startle you.”

“It’s okay.  I’m usually here alone, Tom doesn’t like days like this.  I’m not used to have others around but you, Reaper and Ghost are so silent I forgot you were here.”

Savannah flashes a grin.  “We have had practice being still and quiet.” 

“To answer your question, I was sent here to photograph the burial grounds and the old salt works.”

Reaper leapt to his feet, startling a hundred birds into flight, each of them shrieking their annoyance at him.  “There’s a burial ground here?” he shouted through the din.

Delilah grabs her camera and starts photographing the swirling storm of cormorants, auks and kittiwakes.  She turns her camera on him so she can take pictures of the birds skimming the air over his head.  “It was excavated a hundred and seventy years ago, Reaper, there’s nothing left.  Sadly, it’s been so overrun with people that it’s no longer sacred.  Now it’s just a tourist site.  They say that no one has been quite sure whether it was a tomb or a home or both.  That’s why I was asked to take a look – I’ve been able to tell the difference before.”

He stands there a moment, breathing through his nose as he tries to get a handle on himself.  Delilah watches as he visibly relaxes – his shoulders come down, his fists unclench and his jaw unlocks – and takes pictures of the progression.  So great was his agitation and then relief that he doesn’t notice.  He sits down again and nods.  “Okay.   Okay.  That’s fine.  Are there any others?”

“No, this is the only one.”  Delilah smiles when he nods again and stretches out.

“Why you?  You’re a simple photographer aren’t you?”

Delilah gives Savannah a side-long glance at her question and resumes photographing the birds in flight.  “You researched me fully, I’m sure.  You should know that I have a Masters in both journalism and archeology.  I have an artist’s eye and the knowledge to back my finds up.”

Savannah grins.  “You’re right, I did know.  I forgot, that’s all.  This place is amazing.  It’s easy to forget why we’re here.”

With a grin, Delilah pats Savannah’s hand.  “I only want to do a couple more hours in this spot, then I want to move to the other side of the island.  I’ll show you the cairn – the tomb slash house – and the salt works.”

True to her word, Delilah stays in that spot exactly two hours.  She took hundreds of photos of fuzzy chicks in nests sleeping, being fed or just started to walk; more still of the adults in flight, diving into the sea, fighting with rivals, or loving on their mates.  Then she packed up and led them across the island to the slope facing the larger Eday Island.

There, a hill slopes gently toward the water.  A long, rectangular house was built into the hillside.  It had a small oval house built over the cairn.  The cairn itself was chambered and had had, as Delilah put it, “only two bodies, one human and one otter, in there when it was originally found.”

“The walls are a meter thick in some places.  The wind and sand have damaged a lot of it but it’s still worth a look.  The place was in use for at least a century.  It measures sixty-feet by twenty-seven feet with a six foot drop in the centre.  There are hallways that lead to other rooms, including the large chamber with stalls, maybe for animals?  We’ll never know now.”

She gestures to a low wall between the sea and the entrance.  “The wall here was probably a good eight feet tall, though all that’s really left is just over a foot now.  You can find a space in the main room that must have held a fireplace, there’s a hole in the roof for smoke.”  She pauses then says thoughtfully, “There are stories about ships running aground near here.  That’s what I’d like to really take pictures of.  I haven’t been able to get permission to search for ships though.  I need to find a backer first, I think.”

Savannah, Ghost and Reaper all stand there staring at her.  Delilah wipes her nose as her colour turns bright pink.  “What’s the matter?”

All three of them laugh.  Reaper wraps an arm around her shoulders and smiles.  “You are so lovely when you’re talking about your work.   You love it, yes?”

“Absolutely!  It is my passion, my life.”

“What about when you meet your soulmate?”  Ghosts asks.  “Do you think they will be understanding of all your travel?”

“They will have to be,” Delilah looks fierce.  “I’m not giving this up.  I get to see the world.  I bring beauty to people.  I offer different perspectives, I make people think.  I’m not quitting.”

Savannah smiles.  “Anyone who loves you will love that part of you too.  They won’t be able to help but do so.  I think it’s admirable.”

“Thank you.”  Delilah smiles at her and a small part of her mind wonders what it’d be like if her soulmate was Savannah.

 

 

Chapter Twenty-One

 

2100, Savannah, 36 years old, 1 year, 20 months, 13 days left on timer

Savannah smiles back, wondering the same thing.  She breaks the eye contact abruptly and looks at her watch.  “Are Josh and the others back yet?”  She had sent Josh and Peanut on a tour of the island to see what, if anything, they could see.  She’d forced Tom to go with Taco to find food and informed them both that if they didn’t come back with 35mm film, they would be on kitchen duty until the trip was over.  Cooking and cleaning.  

She sincerely hopes they’ll bring back the film.  The only thing Taco really knows how to cook is tacos.

“I don’t know, I haven’t heard.”  Ghost is the one who answers.

Just then, Savannah’s phone buzzes.  “Hey, Taco.  …What?  No.  …Ew.  No. ….Yes.  Okay.”  She taps the earpiece and shudders.  “He wanted to bring back haggis.  Claims you like it, Delilah.”

“I do.” Delilah laughs at the look on Savannah’s face.  “It’s an acquired taste.”

“You know what I don’t understand about acquired tastes?” Reaper asks.

“What’s that? Delilah asks as they make their way back to the boat.

“Why anyone would put disgusting food into their mouths over and over again just to be able to say they like it.”

Savannah finds that she adores Delilah’s giggles. 

“Because,” Delilah says, “some foods are worth it.  Like Brie cheese.”

“Oh,” Reaper waves a hand in dismissal.  “I liked the Brie at first bite.”

They get into the boat and sail for Eday.  Once there, Delilah says she wants to check on her cameras.

Savannah checks the time and vetoes the request.  “No, I’m sorry, it’s going to be dark soon and I want you indoors before then.”

Delilah considers arguing but she did hire Savannah to protect her and she knew going in that it would be Savannah in charge.  She lets it go and merely follows silently as they go back to the cottage.

Ghost steps through the door with Delilah behind him.  Immediately, he turns and shoves her out, back into Reaper’s arms.  “Someone’s been here,” he growls.

Reaper puts Delilah behind him as her temper turns her face red.  “Loup.”

“Take her to the safe house.  Now.”  Savannah pulls her weapon as Reaper grabs Delilah’s arm and tries to drag her back to the car.

Delilah kicks him in the shin, surprising him, and bolts for the cottage.

Reaper hops around on one foot, cussing.

Savannah is not surprised when Delilah bursts through the door.  She really kind of expected it.  She caught Delilah around the waist and held her to her.  “Don’t look.   The place has been trashed.  It’s a good thing you had your 35mm camera with you.  Ghost is checking the premises.”  She looks up as a very chagrined Reaper pokes his head around the door.  She raises a brow. 

“Sorry, Loup.  She surprised me.”

“It’s alright.  She’s a surprising woman.”  Savannah looked into Delilah’s eyes.  “I’m trying to protect you, okay?  You have to go with Reaper.  Now.”

The chagrined Reaper accepted custody of equally chagrined Delilah and took her away.  Savannah took a long breath and let it out slowly as she closed the door and surveyed the wreckage.  She touched her comm.  “Taco, what’s your ETA?”

“Thirty minutes, Loup.”

“You have twenty.”  She talks over his protests.  “Peanut, where are you and Josh?”

“Airport.  We’ll head back now.  We’re on foot. If Taco passes us he can pick us up. Otherwise, we’ll be there ASAP.” 

“Good.  All of you get back here now.”  Savannah touches the comm once more and cuts off any questions.

Ghost surveys the damage and swears.  “Whoever this was, it wasn’t Tom.”

“And he’s evil,” Reaper adds as he came out of Delilah’s room, a pillow in his hand.  The foam in the pillow is slashed to pieces.  A chunk falls off as he comes to a stop near the others.  “He’s torn up her room so thoroughly I don’t think there’s a single thing that’s salvageable.  Except her computer.  Oddly, he left that alone. The screen was open and the keys were dirty though.”

Reaper gives Savannah a look.  “There are…ah… sticky spots in her room.  On her shoes, the other pillow, the equipment.  I would suggest that it’s semen.”

Savannah rubs her face. It doesn’t matter how much she sees of the world, some people never fail to surprise her.  “So not only is he pissed off, for whatever reason, but he’s aroused by her.  Fantastic, we have a sexual predator and a stalker.”

“He’s never done anything like this before.  I wonder what set him off.”

“I don’t know,” Ghost’s voice rumbles as he thinks aloud.  “We may not know if he has because she hasn’t recognized the results of such an emission and therefore didn’t, couldn’t tell us about it.  I think maybe it’s because he’s final physically close to her.  Everything else has come in the mail or been a brief encounter in public.  He’s here on the island.  He know she is too, she’s the reason he’s here.”

“Well, isn’t that just shiny.”  Savannah growls in frustration.  “We need to figure out who this guy is.  Is any of our stuff touched?”

“I haven’t been in the other rooms yet,” Reaper says.  “All the doors were closed save hers.  It was standing wide open like an invitation.”

Savannah nods.  “Let’s go check them out and see what we can find.  Reaper, check Tom’s room, Ghost and I will do the others.”

The small group splits up and Savannah goes into the room she shares with Peanut.  It’s completely tossed.  It doesn’t look like anything is damaged.  It does, however, look like a small child had a tantrum.  She starts picking things up and looking them over.  The lock on her weapons case is still whole, as are the ones on both her tech case and Peanut’s, which is much larger.  Savannah has spare comms, her computer, a satellite phone and a smaller computer.  Peanut has her personal computer plus about three others with different software programs on them.

Ghost appears in the door.  “Nothing is amiss in our room.  Nothing is touched.”

“Our room has been tossed, as you can see.  Nothing seems to be damaged.  Our lockers are still intact, no tampering with the locks.  He must have been looking for Delilah’s things in here.  The other two rooms are decidedly masculine.”  Savannah nudges Ghost out of the doorway so she can enter the hall.  Reaper comes out of Tom’s room, looking disturbed. 

Savannah frowns.  “What’s wrong?”

“The room has been trashed.  Serious fury going on in there.  There were pictures of Delilah everywhere and they’re all torn to pieces.  Tom’s things are sliced to ribbons and his bed has obvious stab wounds all over it.”

Ghost lets out a long, low whistle.  “Wow.  This dude hates Tom.  I don’t like the guy but even I can see he has merit.”  He pauses.  “Sometimes.  He likes sports.  That’s okay.”

The three of them survey the damage in Tom’s room.  All of Delilah’s cases have been destroyed, all the equipment inside smashed to pieces.  Savannah has a sudden thought and darts out the door.  The two men find her standing over the wreckage of one of Delilah’s time lapse cameras.  She points at the other one.  “They’re both damaged.”

A car comes to a stop near them and Taco and Tom get out of it.  Tom spots the damage and snarls as he runs towards Savannah and the others.  “What the hell did you do?”

Savannah raises a brow as Ghost grabs Tom.  “Excuse me?  Remember why we’re here?”  Tom does the heavy breathing through his nose that Savannah has come to recognize as Tom getting a grip.  She waits until his nostrils stop flaring then speaks again.  “Someone has been here, been inside.  Do you remember all the places she put the time lapse cameras?

Tom nods.  “Yeah, I think so.”

“Good.  You will go with Taco to find them.”

“Loup, ton of perishables in the car.”  Taco jerks his thumb towards the car.

Savannah rubs her face.  “Fine, get them put away first.”

Just then, Peanut and Josh come jogging up and stop, hands on their knees to try and catch their breath.  “What…happened?” Peanut asks. 

“The stalker,” supplies Reaper.  “He did a number on the cottage.”

Peanut swears.  “What do you need, Loup?”

“Find him.  Go through her art work, the awards ceremonies, the gallery opens.  Find the people who are most often at these events.  See if she’s photographed anyone.”  Savannah knows Delilah doesn’t do portraits but she wanted all bases covered.  “Find her lectures, see if anyone stands out, someone who asks the most questions, keeps her attention on him.”

Peanut’s mouth had slowly opened throughout Savannah’s list of demands until it was almost hitting her chin.  “Loup! That will take hours, even with both of us working on it?”

“Better get to it then.”

 

 

 

Chapter Twenty-Two

 

2100, Dennis, timer dead

Dennis is the only pub on the island.  It’s near the airport, darkly panelled, with vid screens showing sports and news and one that seems dedicated to the weather.  He has his eyes on the one showing some football game but he’s not really paying attention. He’s thinking about the way he’d spent his afternoon.

The glory of the destruction, the thrill of the violence, still sings in his blood.  He’s so happy, he’s polite to the server when she comes over.

“Is there anything I can get you, son?”  The woman is older, she’s obviously been on the island a long while; her skin is weathered – wrinkled and leathered by sun and wind, her curly hair is permanently frizzy, hands are calloused.  She gives him a warm smile.

Still elated, he smiles back.  “I would like potato skins au gratin, the steak and kidney pie and a plate of chips.”  He pauses for a minute.  “And a pint of stout.”

“Would you like that all at once, hon?”

He considers.   “No, skins and stout first.”

“Alright then.  You enjoy that meal.  Chef is the best in the Orkneys.”

“Sure.”  Dennis has already dismissed her in his mind.  He smiles to himself as he replays the afternoon.

He’d skulked up to the cottage and was emboldened when no cars were in the drive.  He peered in the windows and spotted Delilah’s picture on a bedside table.  A growl erupted and he smashed his way through the window and hauled himself into the room.  He dropped the bag and grabbed the picture he saw.  He punched the front of the frame and broke the glass. 

After ripping the picture from the frame he crushed it in his fist.  “What is it?” he screams.  “What makes you better?”  He shredded the photo and stomped it under foot, grinding it under his heal.  Then he turned to the rest of the room.  There were other pictures of Delilah in the room, enough that part of him started to think that maybe he had competition. 

He finds the equipment cases and grabs his hammer.  The first swing of the hammer and subsequent explosion of sound – from the plastic cracking – inspired him to greater heights.  He demolished the cases and the equipment left in them. 

Dennis looks around the room, panting and pleased with himself.  As his eyes fall on the bed, images of Delilah and whomever this punk keeping pictures of her flashed through his head.  In his mind, Delilah was riding high above this guy, touching herself while she laughed at Dennis.  Then she had her mouth on the guy.  He had his mouth on her while she talked about all the ways she would defeat Dennis at the next competition.

Fury turned his face into a caricature of himself and he grabbed the knife.  He launched himself at the bed and the imaginary figures there.  He stabbed, stabbed, stabbed, imagining blood everywhere.  He grew more aroused with each strike.  He smashed all the picture frames and stabbed through Delilah’s face.  He gave himself a jolt when he stabbed the knife through an electronic frame. 

Finally, reason slipped in through the haze.  There had to be a room Delilah stayed in, even if it was only for appearances.  Where was her stuff?

He headed into the hallway and opened the first door he saw.  A room with male stuff.  It was severely masculine without a hint of Delilah anywhere.  He closed the door again.

Dennis found the washroom behind the next one.

Then he found a room full of women’s clothing.  At first, he thought it might be Delilah’s and started tossing it but then he realized some of the clothing was much too small for her. 

Finally, Dennis reached the door at the end of the hallway.  He opened it up to a room that was bigger than his at the hovel of a B&B that stupid computer found him.  He launched himself into the room and stabbed the pillow.  Immediately full of remorse, he picked up the same pillow and pressed it to his face.  He inhaled deeply and groaned with pleasure.  He put the pillow back down and opened his pants.

It didn’t take long for the pleasure to overtake him.  He giggled.  “Uh oh, look what I did to your pillow, D.D.!  You won’t like that much.”

His mood shifts again, quicksilver and unpredictable.  “Well, I don’t give a fuck you bitch!  You’ve taken all my awards from me!”  He kicked the pillow then hunted it and fell to his knees to stab, stab, stab it.  He left it pinned to the floor with the knife and set about to systematically destroy every single thing she had with her.

Now, he sips the stout the waitress had dropped off while he was reminiscing, and smiles.  He is a happy person.  For now. 

He is partway through his pie and chips when the door opens again and a large group blows into the pub.  The group is subdued and yet somehow manage to be loud.  He finally figures out that it’s because at least three of them are talking at once to the redhead in the middle of them all.  He growls quietly, his good mood ruined, and hunches over his food, one eye on the group. He hopes they don’t come too close to him.  They settle several tables away, after pulling a couple of them together, and he relaxes fractionally.

Then he hears someone say the name Delilah.

 

 

Chapter Twenty-three

2100, Delilah, 31 years old, 1 year, 20 months, 13 days left on timer

Delilah allows herself, and the equipment they’d had with them, to be bundled into the car by Reaper but sits there and fumes he zips away from the cottage.

Reaper gives her a sidelong glance as he speeds along the slightly cracked and weather-beaten road.  “What’s up, Delilah?”  He waits for a long moment before deciding that she’s not going to respond.  It hurts his ear when she explodes two seconds later.

“What’s up?!  What’s up?!  I just had my equipment destroyed!  I imagine the bastard destroyed everything I own!”  She twists in her seat and lays an accusing glare on him.  “You guys said I would be safe.  She promised.

“I know, Chérie.  I do not know how he found us.  We kept everything a secret.”  He pats her thigh.  “We did our best.”

“It’s a small island,” she says, only very slightly mollified.  “I suppose he was bound to find us sooner or later.  I meant how did he find out I was coming here?”  She clutches her 35mm to her chest.  “Oh Gods.  What if I’d been there when he showed up?”

“Then we would have caught him.  You would never have been left alone there.  And you won’t be alone until we catch the asshole.”   Reaper is pissed.  He’s trying to figure out what they did wrong but he just can’t see it.  They did everything by the book.  That thought triggers another one and he slaps the steering wheel with excitement, scaring Delilah into a little scream.

“Reaper!  You scared me to death.”

“My apologies, Delilah.  I was thinking and my conclusion gave me a little bit of excitement.  Oh look, there’s a pub.  Small but it will do.  We will go there later to talk, the whole group.”  Reaper points out the pub as they drive by it in the tiny town of Eday.  He stops at a house just on the outskirts of the village.  “Wait in the car.”

Delilah watches as he gets out and locks the door.  She lapses into her own thoughts as he does a perimeter check.  What is it about her that is making this guy want to hurt her.  She tries to remember conversations with recent clients, friends, people she’s talked to at the parties Betty forces her to go to.  She can’t think of a single thing she’s done wrong. She’s not perfect but she treats people with courtesy and honesty.

It’s an ex-boyfriend, maybe?  Her honesty there tends to lean towards brutal.  If they’re dicks, she tells them so.  If they’re too fey, she tells them so.  If they don’t know where a clitoris is, she tells them exactly how to find it. 

She nods.  That must be it.  She’ll make a list and –

She screams again as Reaper knocks on the window beside her.  She glares daggers at him as he unlocks the door and reaches to help her out.  She ignores his hand and, once she’s standing, plants her own hands on her hips and scowls at him.  “Are you trying to kill me?  That’s two heart attacks since we left the cottage!”

Reaper has the grace to look chagrined.  “You looked deep in thought. I figured knocking on the window would be better than opening the door.”

“You got that right,” she says as she softens both her look and her stance.  “I’d probably have punched you in the face.”

He gives her an engaging grin.  “And I’d have deserved it.”  He holds out his arm for her hand in order to escort him to the house, is pleased when she slips her hand into the crook of his elbow.  “The house is safe.  We did think to back up some of your equipment but we couldn’t find everything on the list your assistant gave us.”

Delilah’s face lights up.  “You did?  Oh that’s wonderful!  Now I’ll only be behind a couple of days.”  She rushes in the door to look at the stack of hard cases. 

Reaper watches her document everything that’s there.  She’s writing everything down in the little notebook she carries everywhere with her.  At one point, he strolls over and looks at the notepad.  He can’t make heads or tails of it all.  Seems to be in some form of shorthand.  “How on earth do you read this?”

“Hmm?”  Delilah gives him a distracted look as her brain tries to shift gears and answer him.  “Oh, it’s easy. It’s my shorthand.  Can you ask Savannah what was damaged?”

“No, sorry.  Last time I tried talking to her I got cut off.  They’re busy looking for evidence and cleaning things up.  Many things will have to be replaced based on the few words she did say.”

Delilah nods.  “From Ghost’s reaction, I’m not surprised.  And the things here are good.  The ones you couldn’t find are custom made.”  She groans and rubs her face.  “Replacing all that is going to cost me.”

“Our insurance will pay for a great deal of it.”  Reaper moves through the house to see if there’s anything to eat.  Its floorplan is smaller than the cottage and its two storeys, with the bedrooms and a shared bath upstairs.  He can hear her from the kitchen. 

“Why did you purchase all this ahead of time?”

“Loup likes to be prepared.  She researches thoroughly and she figured you’re the type not to stop work no matter what.”  His voice implies that Savannah figured out, before their first meeting, just how stubborn she can be.

Delilah blushes.  “Well, she was right and I’m thankful for it.”  She hears a car pull up outside and she darts to Reaper’s side, furious that she’s so scared. 

He takes her hand and leads her to a corner away from the door and windows.  “Stay put.  It’s probably just Loup and the crew but I’ll check.”  He does just that and sees that he’s right.  “See, what’d I tell you.  You’re safer than ever now.  I see Loup, Peanut, Ghost, Josh and Tom.”

Delilah nods and comes forward to stand at his side.  “Good.  Okay.”  Only he hears her mutter under her breath, “I’m not sure Tom makes me feel safer.”  She pounces Savannah as soon as she comes through the door.  “Well?  Was anything salvageable?”

June 50 Chapters 4-6

Hi! 

I said I would maybe post a mid-week blog to get you the next three chapters and here it is!

Of course, it’s last Friday and I’m scheduling this blog so I don’t forget. 😉

In these three chapters, we meet Delilah, Savannah and Dennis as adults. I like the two women.  I am not Dennis’s biggest fan.  Though, as it turns out, he’s definitely more weasel than devious. Bird’s nest, indeed.  

Oh wait, that doesn’t come up yet. 😉 You’ll see.

Eventually.

Enjoy!

Muah!

Chapter Four

 

2100, Delilah, 30 years old, 2 years, 3 months, 24 days left on timer

“Delilah!”

The woman in question sighs as her assistant’s voice comes over the headset.  It’s the fourth time he’s contacted her in the last hour.  “I’m fine, Tom.”  Sometimes her assistant got on her nerves.  He is a little clingy.  However, he knows the equipment, he makes sure she has everything she needs and understands that she gets lost in her work.  This week they are in what used to be Reykjavik, Iceland.

The entire country had been flash frozen and buried under several meters of snow in a freak storm in 2037.  She was here with an archeological team, photographing their finds and helping date them.  True to the vow she’d made as a teenager she was a photographer, one of the best in the world.  She’d discovered a love of history and made archeology her minor in college.  Today, she’s in a tent guiding a well-insulated camera on a track over a residential street. 

“Shauneen says you’ve been out there too long.”  There is some rustling.  “The sun will go down in twenty-three minutes.  The temperature is already dropping; it’s gone from minus twenty-eight to minus thirty-five in the last five minutes and the wind is picking up.”  His voice turns cajoling.  “I have hot chocolate here, made with real Aztec chocolate and the infrared sauna is ready to go.”

There’s a muffled conversation then another voice comes on, this one is melodious and one of Delilah’s favourites.  “I have some caribou stew here for you too with a loaf of soft bread.”

Delilah laughs.  “You sure do know how to sweet talk a girl, Shauneen.”

“It’s in celebration, darling.  You’re up for the Lucie again.”

“Really?  That’s fantastic!  For which photos?”  Delilah is thrilled.  The Lucie is the biggest photography award out there.  It would give her bank account some nice padding.  She makes a note to herself to talk to her manager again about investments if she wins. 

“Really really.”  Shauneen’s voice is full of humour.  She is Delilah’s best friend and, while she has a happy life with her own soulmate, she doesn’t judge Delilah for trying to avoid the meeting. She’s all about live and let live.  “For the work you did in Bhutan.  They loved the pictures of the elders.  Come on in, we’ll talk about it.   Oh, and there’s something else here for you too but you gotta come in to find out what it is.” 

The mic clicks off.  Delilah chuckles as she starts bringing the camera back in order to pack it away for the night.  All the electronics would go into specially insulated cases.  She tries to both hurry and be careful as curiousity gets to her.  Finally, it’s her turn to bundle up.  She wraps herself in layers of clothing, puts on the mask and goggles that will allow her to see and breathe in the cold, steps out the driving wind.  She clips her safety line to the rope leading from the small tent to the main buildings and trudges towards food and warmth.

Tom greets Delilah as she comes through the airlock minus two layers of clothing.  He hands her the promised hot chocolate and starts talking.  “The pictures you took today already look good.  They are showing Shauneen some things she wasn’t expected and confirming some other theories.  She says two more days of filming in that spot and then she’s going to want to move you south-southwest about a kilometer.  She suspects there’s a temple there, based on the things you’ve shown her today.”

Delilah sighs with pleasure as the sip of hot chocolate she took while he talked spreads warmth through her belly.  “That’s good.  When does she plan on starting to dig?”  She takes another sip of the spicy, sweet chocolate drink. It’s made almost the same way as Xocolatl, the ancient Aztec’s spicy and bitter chocolate drink.  The only real differences that she prefers it sweet and, while she’s in this icy clime, warm.

“She’ll start here as soon as you move to the new location.  She plans on clearing the snow down to roof level with excavators and dump it into the big pool to slowly melt it.  She’ll have a couple students watching to make sure nothing gets missed or damaged.”

As they round the corner into the common room Delilah spies a tall man dressed in the Janus uniform talking to Shauneen.  She stops cold and blinks.  Her brain kicks in and she shrieks with pleasure.  She hands her cup to Tom as she takes off running across the room.  “Sam!”

Tom looks furious for a second then his face smooths out into a pleased smile.

The man in question turns around and catches Delilah just as she launches herself at him.  He gives a mock-grunt then laughs.  “Hello, darling!  I had some leave so I thought I’d come out to visit.”  He kisses her soundly.

Delilah hugs him tightly and has a second to think that she wishes his kisses did more for her.  She wasn’t unattracted to him but she wasn’t as into him as she would like to be.  “I’ve missed you!  Where have you been?”  She leans back and starts patting him down.  “Are you alright?  What parts of the world have you seen?”

Sam laughs.  “I just got in.  Why don’t we take some of this gorgeous smelling stew and some wine back to your quarters?”

Shauneen smiles.  “Here I was all set for a romantic dinner for the three of us.”  She winks at Delilah.  “Take the stew and one of the bread loaves and go.  Tom and I will watch a vid.  Maybe one of Brad Pitt’s movies.”  Because of Janus’s founders were movie stars, their movies were still often thrown into the mainstream media.

Tom grinds his teeth and forces another smile.  “Absolutely.  But I’d prefer Damon.”  He moves forward and presses the hot chocolate into Delilah’s hands.  “Drink this up, we can’t be wasteful up here. You two kids go have fun.”  He hopes no one notices the strain in his voice.  He’d been looking forward to getting Delilah all to himself this evening. Having Sam arrive had been a shock.

Sam takes the cup from Delilah and sniffs it.  He had seen the strain in Tom and how angry the man had been when he opened the airlock for him.  “Aztec chocolate, eh?  My favourite.”  He deliberately takes a sip from the cup and sighs happily as the thick drink slides down his throat.  “That’s all I need, darling, take it back.” 

Delilah takes the cup back as Shauneen hands Sam the tray of food.  It’s covered and insulated for they only bother with minimum heat in the corridors between the main living/working pod and the ones that make up the private quarters.  Plus, she figures they probably won’t get to dinner until much later. “I cranked up the heat in your room about an hour ago, Lilypad,” Shauneen says.

“Thanks, Neener.  Tom, we’ll discuss tomorrow’s schedule at 06:00.  Have a good night.” 

As they move from the room Sam leans down and says quietly, a smirk playing around his lips.  “Lilypad?”

Delilah bumps him with her shoulder.  “Shut up.  They’re old nicknames from school.” 

It’s a short walk to her room and she opens the door to let Sam through then closes and locks it behind them.  She waits only until he puts the tray down before throwing herself at him.

He’s ready for her this time and kisses her hungrily, his hands roaming all over her as she starts to unzip his jacket.  She slides her arms around his waist and presses herself against him.  Then she groans with annoyance and steps away from him. 

“What?” he says hoarsely. 

“Too many clothes,” she mutters as she starts tearing at his outer clothes. 

“Agreed.”  Sam puts impatient hands to the task of removing his own clothes and a moment later they’re diving into the thick, insulated bedding on her bed.

Delilah shudders with pleasure at the skin contact.  It’s something she needs, something she craves, this skin on skin touching.  And when he puts his mouth to her neck to nibble there she happily tips her head back and lightly scrapes her nails over his back and shoulders.  When she moves his mouth lower she arches into him.

Later, when Sam is pleased with himself for having brought her to three orgasms and greatly satisfied for his own, Delilah is wondering what it’s like to have stars explode in your mind, to have that tingling, electric all the way to her toes. She wonders what it’s like to have those orgasms she reads about in the book-files that make up her guilty pleasure. 

Sam nuzzles her neck then kisses her.  “Hungry?”

“Famished.  I’ll get the food.”  Delilah smiles at him.  She really is very fond of him, could be happy with him.  She glances at the timer as slithers from the heated bed into the chillier air.  His timer is set for five years or so away.  Maybe she could manage to spend that time with him.  The soul-sickness doesn’t start right away.  It takes a little time.  She could stick it out for a couple more years, they’ve been together three already.

Immediately, Delilah’s conscience slaps her upside the head.  Selfish of you, it whispers. 

I know, she thinks back at it. She sighs sadly as she watches Sam’s flesh disappear under thick long johns.  She knows what she has to do.

The next morning, Sam’s face is stoic as he says good bye to Shauneen and whispers in her ear.  She glances at Delilah and nods before giving him a last hug. 

Tears shimmer in Delilah’s eyes as she looks up at him.  “Bye Sam.  I’m…” her voice cracks so she clears her throat and starts again.  “I’m sorry, Sam.  I do love you and I want to stay with you but it’s not right.”

He lays his hand her cheek and she leans against it.  “I know, darling.  It’s okay.  I am going to miss you, though.  You’re a good person, never forget that.”  He lays a final kiss on her lips then heads for the airlock.  He pauses beside Tom, he didn’t miss the look of satisfaction in Tom’s eyes.  He puts his hand out and whispers, “Make this look nice and friendly, Tom.”

Tom reluctantly puts his hand in Sam’s then tries not to wince as Sam takes a nice tight grip. 

“If you hurt her, in any way,” Sam says, “I will hunt you down.  Understand?”  When Tom nods, Sam speaks louder.  “Nice to know you, Tom. Be good!”  He chuckles as he releases Tom’s hand.

Tom hesitates then smiles.  “Nice to know you too, Sam.”  He injects humour into his voice.  “Don’t crash in the storm, we wouldn’t want to have to excavate you.”

“What was that about?”  Delilah asks as she rubs her chest.

“Oh, he just wanted to make sure I was going to continue taking care of you.  I assured him I was.”  Tom smiles at her then turns her attention to the work of the day.

 

 

Chapter Five

 

2100 Savannah, 30 years old, 2 years, 3 months, 24 days left on timer

“Loup! We’re set to go here.”  Sydney’s voice crackles in her ear.  Savanah smiles, pleased to have her team together.  She is   “Roger that, Ghost.  Reaper and I are in position.”  Her voice is barely more than a whisper but the mic on her throat catches everything.  George is just behind her.  “Team, check-in.”  She listens to the rest of her team respond, letting her know they are in place.  “Go, go, go!”

They were in Canmerico, that continent that used to be three countries called Canada, America and Mexico before Janus helped Canada invade and conquer the other two countries.  The American and Mexican governments were dismantled and a dictatorship, (a really nice one, Savannah thought), put in place. 

Janus had learned that there was an uprising starting in Oklahoma.  There was a man preaching about a return to the ‘good ol’ U S of A’, as it says on the background of his vid spots. It caught Janus’s attention because the movement was now almost two hundred people strong and they were living in this little village.

This was unacceptable.  Cults were against the world law. 

Savannah was now running a black ops team in a secret sect of Janus that deals with just this kind of problem.  Savannah isn’t one to sit in the command center and watch her team take the chances and face the danger.  She earned her nickname Loup by running into a burning building to rescue George.  He’d been shot and was bleeding out.  He’d shouted for the team to run and then lit the fuse to burn the place down.  His goal was to finish the mission, no matter what the cost.

Savannah’s goal was, and is always, to bring her team home whole.  So she’d run into the building, packed his wound with the organic foam bandage they carried on their belts, then threw him over her shoulder and ran for their lives, including through a wall of fire, straight into the arms of their team. 

After that, George had become Reaper.  They all figured only Death could cheat Death.  He’d become even more devoted to her than ever.  His timer had gone off shortly after that and his soulmate, when she learned what happened, had become just as devoted to their Lieutenant Loup as George.

“We’re in, Ghost.” Savannah spoke quietly as she dismantled the alarm, three steps below state of the art, and stepped into the cult leader’s house.  The rest of her team followed, slipping in doors and windows along the ground floor and through the door on the second floor balcony.  The team swept the house, subduing and removing the people they found until Savannah came to be standing over the sleeping Noah Smythe.  She put the barrel of her gun in front of his eyes.  “Wakey, wakey, eggs and bakey.”

The man jolts awake, smacking his head on the gun before he’s fully aware it’s there.  His hand automatically goes below the pillow.

“If you touch that weapon, I will shoot you.”  Savannah moves her weapon to point at his elbow.

He slowly pulls his hand back and raises both of them to show they’re empty.

“We’re going to sit up now, Noah.  Nice and slow.  Place your hands on the mattress and push yourself up to lean against the headboard,” Savannah orders, keeping her gun apace with his movements.  Once the man is in position she speaks again.  “Reaper, get that woman out of here,” she says of Noah’s now hysterical bed partner.  The woman had finally woken all the way up and realized the shadows in her room were people with guns. 

Reaper gladly manhandles the nearly naked woman out of the room and into someone else’s headache. He’s back a moment later. 

“Now, Noah.  You know who we are and why we’re here.”  She doesn’t make it a question, she’s sure he’s been waiting for her to show up. 

Noah appears to consider his options for his behaviour.  In the end, he decides to go with mature and dignified.  He folds his hands together in his lap, keeping them in plain view, and nods.  “Janus.  And I know your face, Savannah Lopez.  You’ve been decorated several times, including the Platinum Cross for that mission in the Alps.”  He looks to Reaper. “And you, George LePriex, you’ve been right with her. I bet that Sydney Walsh is in your ears.”

Savannah doesn’t show her alarm.  The Alps mission was top secret, buried under layers upon layers of shadow.  Her division is top secret, even their awards are top secret.  They don’t exist. Instead, she gives Noah a sunny smile. “Always nice to meet an admirer.”  She straightens and holsters her weapon, knowing that if Noah even breathed wrong, Reaper would take him out.  “What are you doing here?  You knew you were doomed to failure from the get go.”

Noah chuckles.  “George Washington, the first president of the once glorious United States, once said, ‘Discipline is the soul of an army. It makes small numbers formidable; procures success to the weak, and esteem to all.’”

“If you had as much discipline as you’d like us to think, we wouldn’t have found guards sleeping at their posts,” Reaper says with a great deal of scorn.

“You didn’t!”  Noah hisses. 

“But we did,” Savannah confirms.  “Your ‘troops’,” the quotes were obvious in her voice, “were asleep on the job. A couple of them were drunk.”  Noah throws the covers back, growling, and Savannah chuckles.  “There’s the real Noah Smythe.  Come now, did you think we’d fallen for the smooth, charismatic leader schtick?”

Noah relaxes and smiles charmingly.  “Every man has a moment of frustration.  Even you, Savannah, I’m sure.”

In spite of herself, the inference that she is something less than a woman stings.  However, letting her emotions get in the way is not her style.  She, unlike his men, has discipline.  She can’t help a single cutting comment though.  “I do but I don’t growl like a dog.”  She leans back and crosses her arms and gives him a considering look.  “Did you really think that you could get anywhere with this?”

“I did get to two hundred strong in a matter of weeks.”  Noah looks smug.

“Twenty-four weeks isn’t ‘weeks,’” this time she does the air quotes, “it’s six months.” 

“The two most powerful warriors are patience and time.”  Noah says, still smug.

“You don’t expect me to believe you said that.”  Savannah rolls her eyes.

“Tolstoy,” chimes in Reaper.  “It definitely wasn’t this tool.”

Savannah grins as fury fills Noah’s face for a second.  “What’s the matter, Noah?”

“I am a brilliant man!  You will not treat me with such disrespect.”

“Brilliant?  You’re overselling yourself there, buddy.”  Savannah gestures at their surroundings.  “You’re living in a hundred year old house that I’m sure has mold.” She sniffs.  “Yep, mold.  And a slight hint of urine and sex.”

Reaper makes a noise of disgust.  “Please tell me that you’re not so backward that you combined urine with your sex.”

Noah’s face darkens with fury again, this time it’s a bigger struggle to suppress it.  “What I do in the privacy of my home is my business.”

Savannah holds up her hands.  “Okay, okay.  You’re absolutely right.  Who are we to judge?  I like women and Reaper here, he likes giraffes.” 

It takes Noah a moment to realize she’s joking about Reaper.  He shakes his head and takes the moment to regain his composure.  He takes a deep breath then smiles.  “No one has ever mentioned your sense of humour, Captain.”

Suddenly, the woman Reaper had taken out of the room comes running back in, screaming and waving a machete.  She’s headed for Savannah.  There is the sound of suppressed air.  At the same time, a hole appears in her forehead and her brains splatter against the wall behind her.  She dies with the look of a maniac on her face and Noah screams in anguish.  He scrambles across the bed and scoops up her body. 

Savannah sighs.  “It’s time. Sedate and transport.”   She turns away as Reaper approaches the wailing man and speaks into her mic.  “Time to load ‘em up and take ‘em to the Center.  Let’s go.”  The Center is a facility for the retraining of misguided souls like Noah’s followers.  She doubts that Noah would ever see the light of day; she could almost hear his mind snap when Reaper blew his lover’s brains all over the wall.

Three days later Savannah, George and Sydney are sitting in her office in Edinburgh, Scotland.  The office is part of a private security company she runs as a front for her black ops team.  “We are assigned to the king of Iraqistan.  We will be protecting him and his daughter as they travel their country to check on their people.”

Sydney grinned.  “Heat, at last!”

George groaned.  “It’s Hell.  It really is.”

“Actually, according to the Christians, and the Muslims, the Middle East is the cradle of life.  It’s where the Garden of Eden lay, where Adam and Eve got kicked out.  It’s where, and archeologists have proven this, the first society where trade, learning and getting along was.  We were all birthed from there, according to their histories and theology.”  Savannah lectured.  “There is no reason not to go.”

And few days later, Savannah is escorting the king and princess around a bazaar, annoyed because security is difficult in a place like this.  It is crowded and a rabbit’s warren of streets, alleys, shops and stalls.   There are so many smells, sights and sounds that Savannah is getting a headache.  A small child jostles against her and runs off.  Savannah takes a step and realizes she’s not balanced right.

She slaps a hand to her hip and finds her weapon is missing.  It can’t be used by anyone but her, it’s keyed to her finger prints, but the loss is annoying and it immediately puts her on alert.  “Your Highness, Princess, we must leave.  Now.”  She starts trying to herd them into an alley and away from the general crush of people.  A car will come to wherever they are.

“But Papa! I want to say,” the nineteen year old whines.

“Surely we can stay a few more minutes, Ms. Lopez.”  The man’s deep voice rolls over Savannah and she almost gives in.  She’s noticed that he uses his voice like that a lot and has learned to ignore it.

“No.  We must leave, NOW.  Move!”  She grabs the girl by the arm and shoves her a little, making the spoiled brat shriek in outrage.  People turn towards them and Savannah groans, swearing under her breath.  Whispers of outrage start.  “Just move it, Your Majesty.  We can’t dawdle, someone is coming.” 

Reaper comes over to Savannah and helps her move the two royals into an alley.  “There’s a car coming, two minutes.”

Savannah checks her timepiece then looks around.  She’s got that itch on the back of her neck that’s warned her of danger and saved her team many times in the past.  “We may not have that long.”  She looks around then drags everyone towards a pair of dumpsters that are standing side by side.  “Help me move one of these a little, Reaper.”

As they’re making a hole to stuff their protectees into there is a lot of shouting in Persian, an old language that is nearly dead.  The king shouts back as he pushes his daughter behind him. He misinterprets the look on her face as fear.  Savannah and Reaper run towards them, they’re only a few meters away but it’s too late.  Shots are fired and the king falls, taking his daughter down with him.  Savannah and Reaper fire at the assassins but only manage to hit one.  The other two flee.

The princess is sitting beside her father, watching him die.  The look on her face is something Savannah can only call satisfaction.  She smiles when he whispers something at her then speaks clearly, “Oh yes.  I arranged this.  I am Queen now.  Something you never intended to let happen.”

Savannah and Reaper stand dumbfounded for a moment before Savannah’s training kicks in.  She straightens, makes a statement.  “Princess Lana Rahal, you are under arrest for patricide, colluding with assassins and whatever else I can come up with.” 

Reaper groans to himself.  This is going to cause months of paperwork and appearances before the World Justice Panel – a band of seven of the top judges in the world who decide and mete out punishment for crimes of this magnitude – and he really doesn’t want to do it.  He turns away slightly, confident is Loup has it under control and speaks quietly into his radio. 

Only Savannah sees what the princess does next – she pulls out Savannah’s own weapon and shoots her point blank. The impact of the 9mm slug on the body armour over Savannah’s heart is enough to stop its beating.

Elsewhere, someone’s timer stops, stutters, then resumes counting down.  The person rubs their chest, trying to ease the ache leftover from a moment of searing pain.

 

 

Chapter Six

2100, Dennis,32 years old, timer still stopped

Dennis growls and almost throws his camera at his agent.  “What do you mean I’m up against D.D. for the Lucie again?”

“D.D. is one of the foremost photographers in the world, it shouldn’t be a shock.”  After years of dealing with Dennis, and Rush before him, the aging agent wasn’t afraid of the temper tantrums.  Anything thrown at him had a way of missing anyway, so he wasn’t too concerned.

“That…person…” Dennis spit the word “…has won the last five years in a row!”  He prowls around the job site.  He is photographing what was left of Bhumipol Dam in what is now Thailand Province for the Japanese government.  Japan had taken over China and everything south to Malaysia, east to Indonesia and west to the Xinjiang province.  They were still north of the Himalayans and no further west than Thailand as far as south of the mountains goes because, for some reason the Japanese government could never figure out, Janus was backing those countries and had mountain warfare down pat.  Japan had lost thousands of soldiers in those mounts. 

“I am well aware of that fact,” Robert says.  He finds a chair and lowers himself into it, telling himself he’ll retire soon.  He knows, however, that he will never willingly give this particular client to anyone else.  It would be bad Karma.  Besides, the teachings of Aphrodite do not allow him to deliberately inflict torment on anyone. 

And looking after Dennis can certainly be a torment.

“Why do they keep winning!?  Just who is D.D. anyway?”  Dennis’s eyes narrow speculatively.

Robert shrugs.  “No one knows.  D.D.’s agent keeps a tight rein on her client’s identity.  Apparently, D.D. wants it that way.”

“I will find out.”  Dennis points his light meter at Robert.  “Mark my words, I will find out who they are and then I will destroy them.”

Robert sighs, afraid that Dennis will do just that.  “You can’t do that.  Live and let live.  Put a little more passion into your work.  It’s very nearly textbook perfect, you’re just lacking in passion.”  It’s a lecture he’s given many times. 

“You just said it’s perfect, why do I need to change anything?”  Dennis’s tone is conversational.  “D.D. doesn’t have anything on me.  I’ve seen their work.  Their work with light and shadow falls flat and what are they thinking playing with the hue saturation like that all the time?  Most of their subjects are lacking in emotion.”

Robert sighs to himself and drums his fingers on the head of his cane.  None of what Dennis is saying is true.  D.D.’s work with light and colour was exceptional.  The emotion Dennis finds lacking is joy.  D.D. has a habit of catching unfettered joy and showing the love their subjects have for one another.  He has a suspicion he knows who D.D. is; he’s seen some photographs of archeological digs that have that same quality about them that captures the heart and imagination.  He’ll never tell Dennis his idea though.

Dennis makes a minute adjustment to the camera position then uses his remote to take photos without looking at the small screen to see what’s going on.  “I will find out, I swear it!”

“If you say so, Dennis.”  Robert heaves himself to his feet again thinking that what Dennis has just done is the reason he doesn’t win many awards, and even then, they’re ones D.D. doesn’t compete for.  “I need to be going.  Raquel is waiting for me.” Instantly, Robert curses himself.  Bringing up his soulmate was a bad idea.

“Sure.” Dennis sneers.  “Leave me alone as usual.”

“You’re not alone, you have Steven here.”  Robert waves his free had at the assistant.

“Not for long, Steven’s vacation is about to start.”

Steven nods briefly.  He hasn’t told Dennis but his timer is about to go off.  He has thirty-eight hours to go and he feels pulled to the west.  He’ll be going to Paris.  He had let his instinct guide his choice in destination and prayed to Aphrodite that he’d chosen correctly.  Right now, he tries to stay out of the conversation.

“Well,” says Robert dismissively, “someone is always here.  Enjoy the rest of your time here.  Thailand is a beautiful country.”

Dennis shrugs and turns away from Robert to see what pictures had come out.  It isn’t that he doesn’t see the beauty, he does, it’s his job.  It’s more that he doesn’t appreciate it.  It’s hard to appreciate anything like that when your heart is stone. 

Several days later, Dennis is in his office shuffling of photographs of the last few years of Lucie Award banquets and the gallery openings of other photographers.  He’s not supposed to have taken them but Rush taught him that sometimes, you have to do what you need to do to get ahead.  Rush had had his limits there too but Dennis had no such qualms.  His camera for award shows is in the glasses he wears as an affectation.  It constantly takes photographs and transmits them directly to a phone in his pocket.

So now, he has thousands of photos to look through.  He also has the software to make it go faster and the patience to see it through.  The software is one that catalogues faces and then searches the web to put names to the faces.  He dumps all the photos in the software then watches as a column of faces starts to appear on the right while the pictures get displayed then removed in the space of a second or two, depending on the number of faces in picture, in the box on the left side of the screen.  Each face in the right hand column gets a number attached and a code for the places it’s been seen.

He watches as a few of the same faces start showing up multiple times.  He notices that one woman shows up at all the big award shows and almost all the gallery openings.  He stops the photo flipping and clicks on the picture of brunette with blonde highlights.  He studies the list of award shows and galleries.  He discovers that she is at all of D.D.’s openings and is always sitting at D.D.’s table for the shows. 

“Hmmm…”  He clicks on the command for a web search.

Several minutes later, he finds out her name is Delilah DuMarchand, she’s a brilliant photographer who documents archeological finds with photographs but has never entered a contest.  The angles and the way she uses light reminds him of D.D.’s photographs. Dennis drums his fingers on his desk.  “She has got to be D.D..”  He growls and makes a rude gesture at his laptop as it freezes when he tries to get more information.  He ponders upgrading it but he just upgraded his editing computer and doesn’t have the money for anything else.

It finally chugs along and he suddenly smiles.